Chapter Four- Hard conversations

I've tried to get Peppy alone the whole week so that we can talk but she's always been busy preparing for exams and assignments or when she's not then Jay has been around. I don't even know how I am going to start the conversation, 'Hey Peppy, look you know the guy you've practically fallen head over heels for? Our best friend? Yeah him well uhm-... He sees us as sisters and doesn't feel the same way you do.' That would be horrible and I'd be mortified if me opening my mouth causes a strain with their relationship. I'd never be able to handle it if me telling her the truth will turn out to be the reason that my best friends and well only friends relationship turns sour.

"Jas! Are you even listening to me?", Peppy says preventing me from futher arguing with my subconscious. "Yes?", I feebly attempt. "Okay, then what did I say?", she challenges me. When I look at her sheepishly she gives me a look that says if she was not afraid of looking horrible in orange than she would have strangled me ages ago. "Sorry okay. I have the attention span of a carrot and you know I space out at times.", I try saying in my defense but she still seems angry. "I'm sorry Peppy. Please start over, I promise I'll listen this time. You have my undivided attention.", I say in hopes of cheering her up and it seems to work because she starts telling her story from the beginning.

"As I was saying before your royal buttface decided to zone out on me, is that I think Jeremiah might be starting to have a soft spot for me. Did you see that time at the diner when he sat next to me. And then he asked me to help him plan something special for the twins birthday. He said and I quote, 'You are the most creative and artistic person I know. And it would mean the world to the twins and me if you help out.' I'm finally getting through to him, I just know it.", she looks so excited.

I don't have the heart to tell her, but it's best she hears from me than from someone else." Hey, remember that thing I was supposed to talk to you about before Jay interrupted us?", I say. She notices the uneasy look on my face and her smile drops. "What about it?", she says back equally uneasily. "Well...uhm, when he came to pick me up that afternoon to come meet you at the diner we had a talk of sorts. And he may have mentioned how we remind him of the twins and how much he loves us both as younger sisters.", she looks crushed after I reveal all this to her and I immediately regret opening my big mouth. "Look you may hate me after this, but just know that I didn't even know that he saw both of us that way. And I know how much you like him, but it's best that you hear it from me instead of hearing it from him or someone else and getting hurt or humiliated. I'm sorry Peepy, but I guess that's life at times. And now that you know how he feels you can save yourself the heartbreak and humiliation of him rejecting you.", I say trying to lighten the mood and help her understand why I had to tell her.

A few minutes go by before she speaks up, " Sorry I just need to process all this. It's just that he is giving me mixed signals and now you tell me all of this, it is just all so confusing for me right now." "Maybe it's not that he is necessarily giving you any signals at all. We both know how straight foward he is and if he did feel a certain way for you I doubt he would hide it. Please don't feel bad. You are so beautiful and you deserve the world. But just the way the Bible speaks about not awakening love in your heart until the time is right in the book of Song of Solomon, I strongly advice you to apply that to your situation." I say to cheer her up and help her understand it from my point of view.

"I understand. I still need to process all of this though. Thank you for telling me. I really appreciate your honesty with me.", she says and pulls me in for a hug. "I love you P." "I love you J", she says and slowly pulls out of the hug. "I have to go. ", she says as she starts clearing my desk from all of her biology notes. "You're leaving?", I say sad that she's leaving so early. "Yeah, my mom wants us to all eat dinner together. I'll see you around." she says, but I can see through her lie. She's really hurt but she is trying to mask it. "If you ever need to talk you know I'll always be here don't you?", I remind her. "Yeah of course. Bye.", she says and closes my room door behind her. I hear the front door shut and when I go to my window I see her walking down the street, red faced and wiping her tears.

I really did not want to be the bearer of bad news but she had to know. It was important for her to know, I just hope it doesn't make things awkward between us.

For the rest of the week she avoided us. She chilled with herself during breaks in the library and the only time she and I talked was during biology, at least she did not change her seat like what she did for maths where she sat next to Jeremiah. He was obviously hurt and it was not my place to tell him the reason why, she will tell him in her time. I did not ask her why she avoided us when we were all together because I understood that she needed time to herself and the least I could do was give that to her. She needed it to help guide her thoughts and think it through. Time will always be there but if she was not willing to let herself heal then time means nothing. I just hoped she understood that.

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I give you chapter 4!!

I hope you enjoyed it. It's funny how those who have no experience whatsoever in relationships give the best relationship advice. This chapter is not as long as what they usually are but it is important nonetheless.

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