Chapter 4: Clingy

"You’ll not attend the mass?” I don’t know if Julian is fooling around. Do I look like a person who goes to church every Sunday to attend a mass?

"Are you out of your mind?" In the first place, why is he in my apartment? I can’t even recall that I invite him here. He just have a thick face. .

"Lock the door when you leave." I said to him while I take the book. The best way to rest is to read because to read means to grow.

“Hey, are you serious? ITts my birthday, just this once.”

“Why are you celebrating your birthday in the church?”

"I’m not celebrating there. I just want to thank Him for another year, for the blessings He gave and will give to me. Why? Are you not thankful that despite of what happened He still waking you up? Some people are not lucky to witness another day so be thankful.”

I folded the book and have a poker-face at him. He just smile and even wink. And that’s when I realize just like me, he is also alone in this world.

I can see how his happy while driving but he shoukd be aware that he really looks idiot.

"Are you really not greet me? I told you it’s my birthday today,”

"Then Happy Birthday Julian."

"Thank you. I am so happy and blessed to be greeted by you," he sarcastically said.

"I remember that you had an argument with Zyra? I thought no connection at all?”

After he parked, I instantly left him and enter the church. There are so many people who are thankful and maybe I should also starts to feel it and go be aware of the blessings.

"There must be a vacant seat inside.” I followed him.

"Julian." I heard someone calling my cousin’s name. I don’t want to entertain them but I don’t think I can do it because they are my family.

"Stay here, you don’t need to meet them or you want?” Is he nuts? Why would I meet the family who abandon me?

MY suspicion is right that they are attending the mass every Sunday and they always left me behind.

I remember how I keep reminding myself that the reason why I’m not with them because they just don’t want to wake me up early and let me rest for a while or there are important things to do but this time I had to wake up in my own delusion. I have to admit that when I’m a kid the only thing I want is us to attend a mass. Because I remember every Monday my classmate will keep chitchatting about what happened to them since weekends is the day for a family. I am only the outcast in the room for I don’t even know what to share. And even in occasion, my twin keeps telling me not to leave my room and that’s my mother order and who am I to disobey when my Mom order it for me?

My thoughts went back when I felt someone poke me.

“Is that you Zyrus, my beautiful daughter?” And when did the last thing someone called me daughter. I never knew it will be the Mom of my fake bf and she didn’t feel contented because she hugs me.

“It’s you,”

My mind is in haywire right now yet I saw not her husband but also my fake bf and his brother. Is this some kind of prank? The world is too big but why are we here again?