Nightmares

Pain and void

Bleak and bare

Blood and tears

You and me

Happy or not

Wanted or unwanted

It's going to happen

Sorry for the pain

Sorry for the fights

And sorry for my mind

Sorry for screwing up

And sorry for being sick

I get like this

I clench my fist

I resist at first but then immerse

For dark is my friend it hides my tears

Hides the pain

Eyes shut tightly

I shut down

Silent into the night

It shouldn't be much longer now

Life's a war

That I can't win

Sorry but this is it

I think too much

And I can't undo it all

I screw it up

With blades of silver or my thoughts

Thoughts that scare me

That keep me awake

What do I do

When I'm in a nightmare that never ends

Nightmares come true

With terror in my eyes

And blood on my wrists

I'll wear the biggest smile

And fake it to the end

Sorry for the pain

I hope you get what I mean

I loved you till the end