Chapter 1: Her Precious Gift

Aurelius Azure POV

My Dearest AA,

I don't want you to read this letter but if ever it will happen, I'm happy that the operation went well.

I ask for your forgiveness if I can't fulfill our promises. Forgive me for leaving you like this, I did not intend to do this.

Even if I want to be the first one your eyes will see and not this letter, I'm sorry.

Don't be sad my love, its just maybe, in this life of ours, we were never meant to be together, yet, I promise that in our next life.

I'll come find you, I'll take care of you again, I'll make you happy and we'll do everything that we had wished to do.

Take good care of the gift I left for you.

The gift in which will help you to see how beautiful the colors of the world I see every time I am with you.

I love you so much Aurelius Azure.

Lovingly Yours,

Cerulean Asha

While I am lying here in the grass and facing the sky, I can't stop thinking the promises that Asha left.

Even the bright and clear sky that shines like happiness, can't hide the sorrows brought by the letter and the all that happens.

"Why did it happen on us Asha? why us? Forgive me also if I can't accept it, all that happened is just so painful." I said while tears are flowing

"We were so happy, why did it all suddenly disappeared? Your unfair, you said that together we will watch the sky, Why am I left alone?" I said as I continue to cry silently.

I use my right arm to cover my eyes while I raised my left hands like I was reaching the sky holding the letter she left for me.

"You said, your eyes can be compare to the color of the sky, that's the reason why want to see it but right now, why is it the only thing that i can see is the color of the sky?"

Then suddenly someone hold the hands that are raised in the air and I look at the the owner of it.

The heavy feelings becomes heavier. "Mommy I feel like not going, its hurting my chest" I confessed to my mother.

My mother's tears never failed to show as it starts to build up. It was like my mother felt the pain I am dealing right now.

Of all, why us? Can't we just love each other? Rest assured Asha that the gift you left will be treasured

"But we have to Azure" mother said as she tries her best not to make those tears building up her eyes to fall.

"I can't go, not right now" I said as I withdraw my left hand in which she was holding and cries again as I hide it from my mother's painful eyes.

I felt my mother sat beside where I was lying in the Bermuda grass

"Azure, my pain of losing Asha is just half of what you are feeling as I treat her as my own because you love her" mother said as her voice starts to crack

and a hint of sobs can be heard as she said those words while she rubs my hair like she used to when I was still little.

I got up from where I was lying and sit beside her and hugs my mother as we cried silently and loudly.

I don't know how long we did that but the only thing I know is that, when we let go from each other's comforting embrace,

that's was the time when I know that my mother is already calm and so am I.

Only the songs of the passing birds above the happy sky and the buzz of the busy bees around the red roses and the blue tulips,

the brush of the tall trees around the garden of the mansion as it dances along the wind can be heard and felt.

"Those blue tulips" mother said as she breaks off the trance brought by the serene scenery.

I looked at the blue tulips planted along with the red roses that are in front of us.

"Asha asked if she could plant the seeds a man gave her in which she couldn't remember" I looked at my mother surprised by what she said with a questioning look,

like I was asking if it is true "Yes!" mother exclaimed happily and chuckled

"She couldn't remember who gave it" mother paused for a minute, it was like she was remembering their conversation

"She said she felt like she had promised the man who gave those seeds of tulips that she will plant it in a place where she will leave her heart"

a mix of happiness and sorrows can be seen on my mother's eyes.

I stared at the tulips and it seems like I've seen those tulips before. "looks like I've seen it" I blurted out.

"Yes you did, on the day you woke up after the surgery" mother said "who? who gave those flowers?" I asked mother

" It was Asha " she replied and looked at the tulips with sad eyes and I remained staring at my mother, wanting her to continue, and so she did while still looking at the blue tulips with sad eyes "Everyday, before your surgery, she always pick some blue tulips and replace them with new seeds, she will go to the hospital visiting you and place those blue tulips beside your bed and she never fails to do that" mother breathed heavily as if preparing of what she will said will bring the heavy ambiance earlier back

" And she brought tulips again, the day before your surgery, but I never thought it will be her last. Asha become your donor" mother breathe heavy again while she fold her knees and hugs them after trying to hold again her tears.

And another tempting group of tears starts to fall on my eyes "Asha was willing to be blind saying that she has you to take care of her and so as her mother and our family, she got her mother's approval, our head maid and your nanny Carmen, but no one thought it will be her last words" mother's voice cracked again and the tears we tried to stop starts to fall again.

" Maybe carmen already knew what will happen to her daughter that day because she cried the most when she was sent to the other operating room hours after she was sent together with you to have your surgery" mother cried painfully this time.

Regrets and pain can be tasted in the air that surrounds us, so I hug my mother as I cried painfully too.

If I had known that Asha was with me, I could've hold her hands as we both was sent to the operating room or I could've have stop her and did not proceed.

"Why didn't you tell me mom? I could've have stop the surgery, I could've been with Asha, even though I'm blind, as long as Asha was also beside me, I'm fine" I utter painfully as I hug my mother.

I can't undo the past, done what has been done. But what shatters me most was what my mother said next

" Asha asked for it, We didn't know the reason but she did. She don't want to be the reason for you not to have the surgery. After she was sent to the other operating room and after her mother began crying, Carmen told us the reason, she said that, Asha was sick and she doesn't want to waste anymore time" mother let go of my embrace and looked at me with eyes full of tears, pain and regrets.

" Carmen said that Asha's doctor predicted that she only have three weeks left before her condition will get worse" mother continued

" so Asha wanted to give you something that would help you go on with your life without her" and my world stops from rotating as soon as mother said it.