[Series 1 : Ch 1-7]

May 3
…… Nana, am I really bothering you? Take away your happiness? Sorry, Nana. I'll never tired say sorry to you.

I'll go away, it's going better for you? It's not fair, I know, suddenly sneaked into your life and messed things up. Before all I leave back, brother wants to give you a present. May I?


[Series 2 : CH 8-15 ]

All piled up. I am a gay. I won't deny, since I've been active in SSE (same sex experience) even though I don't want. Still I am more than just SSA (same sex attraction). I, after a dozen years of therapy, have not been as romantically attracted to women as I am to men.

And this is what makes me cry, I even still have feelings for Martin. Even though he has ruined my life, I can't deny that feeling is still there. Coupled with the sexual violence that I experienced, I suffered from fugue amnesia and post traumatic stress disorder. I was sick at the thought of sacrificing the future of a woman and maybe my children if I had to be with a man like me for the rest of his life.

"Don't force Tandrie to get married, Pa." Finally the word slid off. This is my first refusal as a father's son. I was able to fulfill papa's other wishes, but not for that. "Sorry Tandrie can't complete half of Tandrie's religion."


[Series 3 : Ch 16-last + 2 Extra]

Albert was in front of him, returned with all perfection. And as Reyna said, Tandrie's single is a big opportunity for back to old love. There are only two ways, go or marriage a woman. The first option is difficult for Tandrie, and leaves and breaks off his doctoral study which has just started. That's so irresponsible.

The second option, build new love with a woman. Let's just bold, italic and underline the word woman. This is more difficulty for Tandrie. Maybe even the biggest. Tandrie is still not straight, even though he believes he is not gay. However, a piece of his life as a gay bottom made him struggling to be straight.

So, what should I do?
#StraightPride

My Brother's Letters

"Remember me?" I'm trying to normalize my crazy heart beat. The incident the other day was only the beginning of a series of events that again messed up my life. 


"Not." I said in a flat tone to hide and calm my crazy heart beat. 


"Honey, even though for a second I never forget you." I ignored what he said. Ah, when is this project finished anyway? I muttered to myself. Yesterdays I wasn't this sensitive. I can still tolerate the mistakes of workers. I'm quite forgiving, especially for coolies. 


This time everything seemed to make me emotional. Of course he is, the main character in raising my emotion. He often tries to talk to me outside of work. The more I indifferent the more he pursue. What do his want? 


"Wait, Tandrie!" I turned around, very insolent calling the name directly. 


"Shall I fire you?" I immediately played the trump card. Damn, why are you smiling? Cheeks, cheeks don't blush! I immediately cleared my throat to neutralize the nervous. 


12. The Broken One