Reality begins to set in

Reality begins to set in

There was a knock on my door and there she was hugging me and we woke up right away to shower and get ready. As soon as I parked at the high school Josh was waiting for me in the parking lot I turned off my car and got out.

You can't leave me alone

I replied

No she's not leaving what do you want

You're my girlfriend how do we have to talk

I took the ring that he gave me off my finger I took his hand and put it on saying

There we have nothing more to talk about

I turned my back to leave

But he pulled me and gently went inside saying

Let her do another one of your shows today too, you want everyone to know that you just got dumped by the supposedly most irresistible guy in the whole school.

He let go of me and I walked away he shouted

This isn't going to stay like this. I'm going to find out what's going on. I know you're with someone else and I'm going to find out.

The whole class did nothing but harass me, tripping over my chair and the teacher even asked him if he was drunk.

At breakfast time he sat down at my table where me and gentile april were sitting

And he said

And now it's the three musketeers and you April bitch that you didn't dislike the flea this one or is it that they are a trio now

I said

If you continue harassing me I'll have to file a complaint with the principal

She looked at me angrily and got up abruptly making the table wobble and all the drinks flip over.

And walking out he stumbles over Newton dropping his tray my cousin says to him

What's wrong you idiot are you stoned can't you see or what?

And without further explanation josh turned and punched him in the face making him fall to the ground in a rage newtan took the tray of food and got up and smashed it against jhos head and they went punching each other until they fell on one of the tables the guards came running to separate them both they were very beaten up I had never seen newtan so upset and he was yelling at jhos

I'm going to kill you, damned by my mother I'm going to kill you.

And jhos yelled at him

Who are you going to kill you sissy if even the lousy one left you for someone else surely

Loser

Newtan: you're going to regret your words

You are the one to blame for her leaving me and don't talk so much it's obvious that my cousin changed you for someone else too.

You are a loser just like me

They took both of them to the management and things were getting out of control.

The atmosphere was getting tense so she went to the bathroom as some of the spilled drink fell on her skirt and I took the opportunity to ask April

I am going to ask you something and I want you to be very honest?

What 's going on?

Since when do you sleep with jhos' dad?

She got very nervous and evaded my question.

What are you talking about? I don't know what you're talking about.

Don't lie to me yesterday I got to see you in the room with him.

Look, if he is forcing you, if he is blackmailing you for something, don't worry, I managed to record it and I have it very well saved, but trust me, we are like sisters.

She started to pack up her things and to leave

I don't want to talk about it

I grabbed her arm and asked

Jhos knows about this right that's why they are getting along so bad tell me what's going on

Samantha don't get involved in this don't say anything just as I will be a tomb in your secrets be in mine

Promise me you won't talk about this to anyone.

I looked at her and said

But at least tell me what's going on

Promise me samy

Okay I promise

We walked out of there and went to the classroom and we passed in front of the principal and there was jhos Abril looked at him and he told her

What do you see me bitch

She smiled and said as she was walking

Not

only newtan would like to see you dead but me too and many more who don't dare to speak.

I heard everything and surely those who were nearby heard but I didn't want to inquire or ask anything I just told her

April don't say that

Neither to wish her death

And we went to the classroom

When I entered I realized that Gentil was not there and I decided to go to the bathroom to know how she was getting to the bathroom I hear giggles of girls and I open the door carefully Gentil was standing and in front of her amaranta putting lip gloss I almost died of anger

And I said

What the hell is Gentil doing?

She pulled Amaranta aside and answered

Nothing I'm just putting on a little lipstick

You put on or get lipstick

Amaranta laughed

I said

What are you laughing at, stupid

I'm laughing because apparently we have the same tastes.

I was going to throw myself at her but Gentile stopped me by stepping in and being

Samantha it's ok

I looked at her and said

Let go of me

I went out of there and Gentil followed me and even though he told me to stop I didn't I went into the classroom and the teacher was already there. I went in and then Gentil came in but neither Newtan nor Jhos were there.

I had a lot of rage, an inexplicable rage, that image of Amaranta painting Gentil's lips and I couldn't get out of my head the doubt of if something else happened between them and I wondered

Would they kiss?

Why was she painting her lips?

I couldn't concentrate at all in any of the following classes thank God it was over that morning and it was time to leave. I walked to the parking lot. Gentil came behind me and when I was about to get in the car he grabbed me by the arm.

Please Samantha let me explain

I stopped and turned around and said

Did you make out with her?

Of course I didn't.

Damn it Gentile then why is she painting your lips what is that you know what they say about her now because of you I've been exposed.

No, not because of me

You don't control yourself, you didn't let me talk, you gave her all the signs of a jealous girlfriend.

She grabbed my hands and said

You know I love you and everything we are going through to be together already with jhos and newtan behind us is enough don't put more burdens on this relationship.

I looked away and then I pulled her against me and hugged her and gave her a little kiss and told her

Don't you dare cheat on me because I don't know what I'm capable of.

I won't. I love you.

And just at that moment the psychologist arrived to board her car and we separated quickly but I know she managed to see us. However, we got in my car and left. I left Gentil at her house and that afternoon I found out about Jhos and Newtan's suspension for a week.

Gentil and I didn't see each other all afternoon but we did talk by text message the next morning as we walked into school she heard on the speaker phone

Miss Samantha Broxon

Miss Gentil Leejam

Head to the psychology department

We were in trouble. We both saw the psychologist in the parking lot the day before but how much did she see that was the unknown.

We went into the psychologist's office

And we sat down in front of her

You know why I sent for you

I answered

No not really because I don't think I did anything wrong.

And you Gentile

I can only think that it's because of newtan and jhos.

She stood up and said you know that nothing we talk about in here will get out because it would be illegal to break my confidentiality agreement with the patients or students.

I said

It is your duty to tell the director about any conduct you see or believe to be improper on the part of any of us.

I have not seen anything improper and this meeting we are having is between you and me.

Gentle question

And why did we

Psychology: You know I saw them yesterday if I had seen them on the courts or in the bleachers it would have been friendly behavior between two girls but they were out of sight maybe because they saw it as a safe place.

I told him

That there are no cameras in the parking lot

Psychology: you know perfectly well that there are not Samantha

My question is the following

Do you have a romantic relationship?

I answered: of course not

Psychology: yet you kissed Gentil on the lips.

I just thought I was discovered and all that I would have to face.

Nervous I asked

Will you notify my parents?

so I can pack my bag because at the very least they will kick me out of the house or send me to the other side of the world.

Noo as I told you this is confidential what I want is to help you both and to know how long this has been going on.

Me: a couple of days

Psychology: and it's just curiosity to experiment

Gentile: we love each other, at least I love her.

Samantha: I fell in love with her, I don't know how it happened, I can assure you that I don't like girls.

I just like her I like her a lot

Psychology: that can happen They don't necessarily have to be lesbians it can be a personality attraction to each other

Have been with women before or kissed at least one other girl before

Gentile: no I have never even been intimate with any guy this was something that started to happen to me all of a sudden and it has been very hard for me to assimilate and accept the truth I wouldn't want to give my dad worries he would kill me

Psychology:

Don't worry this won't come from us it would be very useful if I start attending them separately as patients and psychologists.

Gentile: my father couldn't afford that

Samantha: don't worry, put it on my father's card and I will take care of informing him that I will start with his psychological guidance and give me the applications written with our names including Gentil's too please.

We leave Gentil tells me

I don't think I need psychological counseling.

Me: But she does need the money.

She is simply charging for her silence and I am willing to pay so she can never say what we just confessed as patients.

Gentile: This is going to come out someday.

Me: yes but not yet love my parents are not like yours they would send me to the fucking end of the world they would separate me from you they will never allow this to come out in public my father is very conservative very old fashioned he still thinks I am a virgin if he finds out that I am not he would force me to marry jhos

I don't want to be separated from you, I don't want to lose you.

Gentile: okay, let's do as you say, I don't want you to be sent to the end of the world either.

Me: From now on we have to be cautious in love and think that Amaranta's bitch knows too.

Gentile: doesn't know

She only has doubts because of your behavior that day but no one told her that you really did.

We went to class and the day went by without any more problems.

Wednesday and Thursday went by without much to tell Gentil and I saw each other in the afternoons at my house, my dad signed the permission for the psychologist to see us because she said that both Gentil and I had severe symptoms of anxiety and stress.

Until Friday arrived and the life of all of us would change forever.