chaeraelk_

"I know, you've worked hard..."

Everyone must have experienced sadness, disappointment, and suffering. I won't force myself to speak.

Maybe these sentences will be one way to express that sadness. Not much is able to reveal it. 

I just wanted to help convey a taste that had long been harboring itself. It hurts, but it's more relieved to say it.

Hard To Breathe

Our story already too much to tell by me. 


I'm here, alone, think about any other possibilities…


I'm really sorry to myself for loving you that much, eventhough I don't know what you feel actually… life is so hard when i try to understand that you with her maybe have feelings for each other, it hurts me fr…


But, am i have the chance? Who am i so can be jealous for both of you, right? We're just senior and junior, isn't it in your mind? Please, don't hurt me like this… 


Its always me who break my heart because expect so much about relationship, right? If i wanna ask you, can you just stop stare at me like your eyes have love for me? Your eyes like wanna tell everything, and how stubborn I'm to ignore about so many facts between you and her, im so dumb 😔 


Why i cant have good relationship these days? 


Its more hurt when all of my friends try to talk about boy…


Its hurt if i have to erase your photos, your videos, all pf yours in mine.. haha can i? So hard to do that you know?


Can you just go? Maybe i have to open my mind, try to leave all stories about us bcs the more i try to keep, the more hurt i can feel in my heart…


I try to give you my love… but i think now its enough to make me looks like dumber in love…


I should be focus on myself again, isnt it?


Eventhough when i close my eyes, i can clearly see your beautiful eyes who sometimes glance at me…


How can i erase this beautiful, but hurt stories?


Can i just try to ignore all about you?


Eventhough this is maybe your last part in my chapter, but our memories still in my mind… i will try to adapt, so please just ignore me when you see me, ill do the same, so it maybe less hurt for me and maybe I'll definitely can let you go, my love.


[~99~]