Down to King Enma

****** my mood was the same as yesterday. I still cannot let go of what she said to me. that one word that triggered everything. Maybe to her or them it was just words. They did not know that it just triggers all of those hurts. 

Suppresing what I think, what I want to say, on how will I express it. they did not know that I have been doing it all of my life. And now that I can express it, slamming that word in my face while I'm at the peek of my anger was like slapping to my face that I may have exceeded on expressing myself. That maybe I might have been wrong that i am free here. In the end, I cannot be like that here, too.

Then maybe, I'll just have to shut up. 

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