Chapter 26 Distance

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Mrs Ahlam

When you can't control what's happening , challenge yourself to control the way you respond to the situation.

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"Yeah I was engaged to her but we broke it off and she still claimed to love me and all that, I had twice caught her with someone else she asked forgiveness and I  just accepted her later we became close friends again and stayed  as close friends only," he said painfully.

"I went abroad for change for better education on Islam also I started attending lectures , because of my habits and spoilt group of friends here but there also slowly I was changing but still. needed that one person, that one move and then when I came I met  you,"

My heart ached, I wanted  to comfort him at the  same time I wanted space from him, we both needed some space distance makes the heart grow fonder but is that fully true?I doubt.

"I didn't inform you but me and Sara were studying uni together and got engaged secretly, after sometime she played with my feelings ,caught her with someone else but then she asked forgiveness I accepted and since then we stayed as close friends in fact became very closed ones including Fahim, Kamran and Khadija. I never knew what evil plans she had once we came back and I told her I had someone in my mind .

"She didn't know about dare thing but when she knew I had an interest in you, she wanted you out of my way, she tried several ways, making car follow us, she tried to threaten you, she came at the office and tried to take your place, she was the one behind us that day, she has been very possessive" he kept on explaining and I kept on listening silently.

"I told her about the dare and she was over excited she knew I wasn't serious about you but then once when she called me I told her  I liked you so much, she tried confessing but I told her we were just friends nothing more," he explained in a sad tone and I nodded my throat felt dry no words came out of my mouth.

"Thanks for truth but please I need some space to digest all these, it's too much for me, you were in a relationship with Sara even when you tried to approach me, you made dare just to play around it was normal for you but you hurt me, I thought you were different," I complained.

"Please know that I have changed, I never prayed, I smoked when I was stressed and my parents were never proud of my spoilt behaviour before you came everything was different but now everything is changing and you slowly triggered something within me even without realizing," he spoke and I glanced at him, his expression was heartbreaking but he broke me also, I don't know what to do may be space will make us think clearly.

As the cool wind blew I shivered and felt a hand on my shoulder and I felt him placing his jacket on me silently, We both headed inside cottage, none us daring to break agonizing silence, both lost in our own world.

Sara was behind all this because she didn't want me in her way, was I third wheel?but he didn't have any feelings a she said so why couldn't he approach me directly if he would have approached me directly would he have liked me? would he have changed?woud    I have accepted him?

Once we reached our cottage, it was evening it was almost 7 pm I could feel his eyes on me but I avoided his gaze, I sat on the bed it was time for maghrib prayer and my medicine.

When he saw me wince in pain he took he pain killer, pour water in a glass and kept on table beside me he told me he would approach me when I would accept and forgive him willingly we both accepted, did he still care?

He didn't do like he usually did when I was in pain, he usually handed me and forced me to take medicine as he knew I needed someone by myside to take medicines and ointment had to be applied, this was becoming so awkward between us.

Once I was done with medicine, he went and did ablution, he came out of bathroom water dripping from his hair I felt like ruffling it he looked so handsome but he needed some space from me for hurting me, I still needed to overcome whatever he told me to know if he truly loved me or was it game?

He didn't gaze my way and my heart ached seeing this side of his but who's fault?

Once he was done, I rushed inside and tears flew repeatedly I wiped them, and did ablution it was painful because of my hand, I fixed myself once I came out of the bathroom and took my hijab he was already on prayer mat focused on dua he was praying.

A lump formed in my throat, I shut my eyes and opened them, I went and stood behind him slowly he guided us our prayer and once done made some supplications, which tore me hearing this but I controlled myself.

We both folded our prayer mat and instead of our daily routine which we had been doing for two days he just took his laptop and focused on it while I just lay on bed my head in the headboard and stared at him, figuring him out, the way he looked stressed as he typed furiously, the way his muscled tightened, the way he had frowns on his forehead, why was he so stressed?

A sob escaped me and he finally gazed at me, I knew my face was mess due to over crying his expressions softened but he didn't even approach me, he kept his promise.

Will we both be able to take this distance and so called space for long?should we both give in and start afresh?

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