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Like a mouse, Alex crept out from under the stair case. I chased him with my knife held high above my head. The stamp of our running feet on the cold tiled floor, sounded like the galloping of a hundred horses.

Alex ran into the bathroom like a chased puppy. Just as he was about to shut the door close, I flung the knife at him. I was determined to pierce him from the back. I really wished the pointed edge of the knife would hit him from behind. I wanted to see him fall to the floor like a game. I wanted to see him bleed and beg for mercy when I finally approach him. I wanted to see Alex beg for his life as I cut off that freaking rope he called a manhood.

But the knife which I had thrown, missed Alex's back by just a few inch and fell inside the bathroom. I screamed in frustration as Alex shut the bathroom door and quickly locked himself inside with the keys.

"Kemi! Jesus Christ. Kemi." Alex panted like a tired donkey.

"Do you want to kill me? What in the world has gotten into you? Blood of Jesus. Kemi!" Alex exclaimed.

I fell on the floor and broke down in tears. Memories of Dayo forcing me into having our very first sex flashed before me. I remembered how painful it felt. I was denied of every pleasure a woman was suppose to feel. I remembered how I felt helpless as he held my both hands tight. I felt like a handcuffed criminal. I felt like a chicken about to be slaughtered for christmas.

I remembered how I struggled and kicked. How I tossed and turned. How I shook and danced with my legs in the air. I remembered how I bit Dayo on his shoulders with my teeth. But the impact of the bite on Dayo, was like a toothless baby's bite. Dayo felt no pain at all. The skin of his shoulders were thick and strong.

Dayo had an athletes body. His muscular arms where strong and smooth. His packs were fully built - built from countless push ups and press ups in the gym. He had so much energy in him and so much strength too.

When he pulled off my pant that very day, I knew that was the end of my struggle. I knew he was only few seconds away from having his way. Though I struggled to close my legs, but his strength could not be marched. When he pushed open my legs and parted them with his body, my heart beat increased. Fear gripped me. Sweat dripped down my face in tiny rivulets.

I became a strong and fighting woman, now turned into a helpless beggar. I pleaded with Dayo to stop. I stopped struggling and begged him not to do it. I reminded him that it was not the plan. I tried to tell him that this was not how we planned our first sex to be.

But he was like a hungry bull. He was deaf to my plea. He was a determined psychopath. He ravaged my body with no respect for my womanhood. Dayo was a selfish egocentric asshole.

The fact that Dayo forcefully had his way into me still hunts me till date. It started hunting me from the moment he announced our break up and took his last piece of me before letting me go.

"Why are men like this? Why are you all this way? Why can't you just love a woman with your heart? Must you do it? Must you all do it?" I broke down in tears.

"Kemi I.. I…"

"Alex I only wanted giving us a try. I wanted giving our relationship a try. I wanted to see if we would work. I thought you will help me get over Dayo. I felt you were a different guy. But I never knew you were just after the same thing Dayo was after. I didn't know you were after my body and not my heart."

"Stop it Kemi. Do not talk like that. I am not after your body. I have never been after your body. I love you Kemi. I love…"

"Alex just shut up." I thundered angrily.

I was already tired of hearing the same thing over and over again. I was tired of men making excuses and using love as a backup to shield their evil.

I stood up from the floor and walked back to the bedroom. I picked my wig and put on my gown. I was heart broken and frustrated. I pulled my towel from my bag and wiped the tears from my eyes.

I walked down the stairs. Alex who was peeping through the opened door, sighted me coming down and quickly slammed the bathroom door close.

"Kemi where are you going to?" Alex asked.

Alex opened the door when he heard no response from me. He peeped through it. When he noticed I was not holding anything harmful, he rushed in my direction and fell on his knees.

"Kemi please come back. Please do not leave me Kemi. I really love you. Kemi how will I survive without you. Kemi I am sorry. I am sorry Kemi, please forgive me. I promise it will not happen again. Please do not break my heart. Do not leave me this way." Alex pleaded.

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