I Don't Understand

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Trying to hold my tears from falling anymore than they should, I lifted my head up. Hora kept on patting my back but I stopped her and just smiled. Whoever was targeting me, they would most likely be still in there somewhere, wanting to see me hurt or cry.

'But I won't let them. I won't let them see me cry because that will just satisfy them. And I will NEVER do anything to satisfy them. Instead, I will smile and raise my head. Then they can all gnash their teeth thinking their ridiculous plan failed. Yes. I will irritate them more. F*ck them!'