Chapter 7

It has been days since we became this close or let me say she becoming close to me, she makes me want to feel it’s time to have someone to share my burden with. But I know myself; I’m not ready to accept the fact that there are friends who'd stay by my side.

Lately, as she took us out only to eat, for once I’d never asked her if she was eating to get fat. In the cities snack cafe she took us to, it was full with lots of girls hanging out with friends. I don't seem to have anyone here.

"Say Seth, do you have a girlfriend or ever had one?" She asked eating her cake.

"No, I don't wish to and I don't want to have." I said looking at the different slice of cakes on my plate. "You should probably be coming here with your girlfriends"

"I told you, they won't allow me to have this fun, if Sasha hears about my sickness, she'd love to quit her job just to be with me, but I'm not ready for that." She nodded and continued to eat.

"But don't show them you are sick" I said and then she looked at me with an all out stare.

"Are you saying I should stop hanging out with you?" She asked and I almost chocked. I shook my head saying that was not what I meant. She had misunderstood me.

After we were true, we left and only God knows where we were heading to. We came across Sasha and her other two friends. She frowned when she saw me and I just passed her but April stopped to meet her friends.

My appearance was enough to disappoint them, my raven black hair always covered my left eye and my eyes always look so bored and weird.

"I don't trust him" Sasha whispers, who cares if she does, many people don't trust me even a bit.

"Sasha, his just a friend, his very lively"

"Listen, April, I don't want anything happening to you. If anything..."

"It’s okay Sasha, everything gonna be fine, trust me" she said Patting Sasha's shoulder then waved and walked up to me, "shall we?" She asked and I nodded.

We continued heading straight to the Cities Garden where probably they were lots of flowers you'd love to see and even rest feeling the cool breeze blowing you.

"I always love seeing the trees bloom, don't you love it Seth?" She asked and I nodded standing before her as she looked. I noticed there was one particular flower which is yet to bloom.

"Hey look, that's just sleeping not ready to bloom" she said laughing. All I could do was to stare at her. "Do you always come here?" I asked but she shook her head.

"I only came once when I was still a kid," she said then turned around from me and running down to the beach far from the city, I didn't chase after her, just walked towards her.

She sat on the sandy ground and took off her sneakers before running into the sea to play with the water while I watched her every moves.

She's so beautiful, especially when she grin; I still couldn’t believe she was going to die in few weeks’ time. She really looked so strong and I was beginning to develop a feeling I've never felt before.

'My heart always sang and then I saw her in my mind holding that innocent smile but indeed what really is this kind of feelings? I shook it off my head when I noticed she had stopped playing and now looking straight at the sea. It pushed me to ask her so I walked behind her and stood.

"Are you...." I bit my tongue as she turned. "What?"

"Are you seriously going to die?" I asked looking away from either her eyes or her smile. "Of course I am that's why I want to have so much fun, my parent still don't want me talking about dying but they know there was nothing they are going to do, they've tried so much for me and then..." She stopped, left the sea to wear her sneakers.

"My kidney failure which is also called the ESRD that's the end-stage renal disease is probably the last stage of kidney chronic disease. When it fails, your kidneys stop working and the probability of surviving the kidney transplants is little. When I heard about my disease, I was told I'd live for few months and that's why I'm making it memorable.

I don't want to see myself as a burden to my parents. They should just stop the medication and quite paying because I won't survive and that's why i want you to stay by my side and keep it a little secret." She said rubbing my cheeks as she walked past me.

I stood there in shock not moving a bit, i felt her palm still on my cheeks, deep in thought.

"Seth!" She called and when i turned, she gestured at me to come over. I caught up with her as we walked home. I couldn't even say a thing and when we got close to her home, i watched her go in safely.

The sun was already setting as i walked home hopelessly. I stopped by a store to get something to eat when i felt Sasha storming at me.

"You! Tell me what's going on between you and April" she yells angrily.

'Just where is she coming from?'

"Nothing," I replied.

"What is she to you?" She asked again and I shook my head looking away then I answered "nothing" my heart ached when i said such, she might have trusted me. But this is what i don’t want. She hissed taking few steps towards me and grabbed my collar then pushed me to the wall which i hit my back against it.

"Nothing you say, do you know April? She's too fragile even after she broke up with her boyfriend, she finds it comfortable around me, I wonder why she's with you. Do you know what she might be taking you as?" She shouted as everyone surrounded us.

"I swear, if anything happens to her or you hurt her. You won't go scot-free. Keep that in mind" she whispered hitting me harder before releasing me and walks away. Everyone gasped, whispered to themselves and left as I struggled to regain my balance.

Wondering what to do, why on earth have I even made her my friend? She isn't even my class. I was still wondering when I heard Jamie's voice asking what was wrong and helping me to my feet.

"Seth?"

"Thank you, I'm heading home good night." I said walking away and heading home. I didn't buy anything and for that night I didn't eat anything at all, I just stared at the celling of my room when a text buzzed into my phone and i quickly checked.

'Hey Seth, get ready we are going for a trip by the train tomorrow, I would be waiting for you at the train station. Thank you. Sleep tight.'

I read the message over and over again. Guilt covered me. If she heard what i said about her being nothing to me, she'd hate me but try to hide and die with the pain. I shot my eyes hard at the thought. I didn't want to reply and I didn't want to be seen as a true misanthropist by the whole world either. Not that i like it. I should probably agree.

I replied her text by agreeing to go with her but sincerely I couldn't sleep that night. I felt so hopeless at all point