14. BoLsHie

Aiyla PoV

"You just do it. You force

yourself to get up. You force

yourself to put one foot

Before the other, and God

damn it, you refuse to let it

get to you. You fight. You cry.

You curse. Then you go

about your business of living.

That's how I've done it.

There's no other way."

- Elizabeth Taylor

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After the death joke I was adamant on changing myself; I became the girl I never ever thought would be in my life. The meek girl once my family knew turned into a rebellious girl; a bolshie and everyone was surprised to see a big change in me.

With new obstinacy I started my war against the family and I was persistence to win. I stood up with a strong force of will power and determination; a determination to fight for my right and for myself. This was not the life I dreamt of, this was not the way I pictured myself turning into a rebel and going against my family and turning myself into a reckless girl. I started acting like a girl who did not even give a damn about the world or what people would say about me or how they would criticize my behaviour. I was so much hurt that no one can even imagine, I was made this way and pushed into it it's not like I decided to act like a rebellious from my childhood. After trying for a multiple suicide and not being successful this was the only way I found to protect myself.

But from all this woeful incident I learned one thing that life is not as easy to live as we think and not everyone gets everything he or she wanted from life.

So much anger, frustration, rage and resentment started building inside me for my family for not being there for me when I needed them the most. I became a vexed girl and once a quiet girl turned into a aggressive person. I went into a path that I never thought of taking in my life; a path leading into my destruction.

I started a fighting for my right; I fought against that woman's abuse and raised my voice for every abuse she wreaked on me. Whenever she use to beat me I gave my answer through a Punch and she knew; she understood I was not going to remain silent anymore; that I was not the same meek girl she knew; she knew she has given birth to a devil now and has awaken my animal side.

Like I said in my previous chapter somehow my father came to find out about this incident and called to have a conversation about this incident and I told him what had occured but he told me I was wrong running away from home and did not believed me but still I did not give up whenever she use to abuse me I would call my father and tell him the details. After some time my father came back home so we had a discussion about what happened and what she had done to me and you know what was surprising she told my father to throw me out of the house and I was shocked when I heard that but I told her this is my home, my father and my family and I had every right to be here and that she is the second person here she should be gone from our life but instead my father did not even took any action against her behaviour except for the shouting he did and this was my last straw of tolerance.

I don't know why not even my own father decided not take my side and not give a justice to me. He just simply let go of this issue like me being abused was normal and treated me like I deserved it. This was so unfair and unjustified to me.

This made me only hate my father more and the good relationship we had was wrecked. Every now and then I started brawling with him, I stopped talking to him nicely. Every exertion that was blown my way turned me into a miff person.

I started hanging out with a wrong circle of friends, they started becoming my savage and a way to get out of that hell house. I started partying, drinking, smoking and taking weeds, tablets and staying late at nights and not coming home was becoming more and more frequent for me and sometimes my brother or father had to come searching for me at my friend place and somehow all this was affecting my family cause my family had to hear all the criticism about me from outside people. Everyone was surprised seeing so vast change in me. They never thought that I would turn into a heedless girl and every one started questioning what was happening with me and what caused me to be this way cause everyone from outside knew me as a very good and gentle girl but what answer would my family have given to them when they knew somewhere why I was being a defiant and knew they were also in the wrong so they kept quiet and acted like nothing was erroneous and it was all me going against the world. It was a pun right they all were acting so good and I was again made the defaulter here.

There was also a time when I started bunking school and hang out with my seniors smoking, drinking and going to places but I never let these things affect my studies because somewhere deep down I knew education was important and it is this education gonna help me further in my future. I was still the same fast studious girl passing every exams and coming first or second.

I had less girl friends and more boy friends cause the girls I was friends with did not wanted to get involve with a unruly girl like me they were being forbidden to stay friends with me but nonetheless I had girl friends who would help me in my studies and tried to guide me in the right path again and their family became my family somehow. They understood why i turned into a person that I was not.

I never liked what I had become I use to hate myself while looking at the mirror. Somewhere deep down I knew I was in the inapt but I was also done being a good girl of the family look what I got being a good girl I used to say. Even though I did not like what I did or became but it was my only salvation going through the pain, hatred, rage, frustration I had in me. Half of my teenage life was spent in dark path but somewhere I still had the determination to change my life as well and that determination helped me moved on.

But in-between all this mayhem something beautiful happened in my life and I never expected that I would be so happy there is a saying something good will always come to you if you have patience to wait and that's what happened to me. Something good did happened in my life and it was the most happiest days of my life.

But do you think the abused stopped? How do you think she took the right path in her life?

How do you think she made herself strong?

What do u think what good happened in her life that she was happy?

Can you all guess and leave a comment for me at the end! Please I wanna know your view.