"Ocean is strong power
 Ocean is our life
If you won't be able to
Survive against its wave
You die"
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Throughout my entire existence, I have wept incessantly due to my shattered heart and ruined life. The pain and suffering I endured, the loss of loved ones, the abandonment by those I held dear, the constant reminders of my worthlessness from everyone around me, and the relentless abuse I endured - all of it left me yearning for love that was never bestowed upon me.

It was my own family who betrayed my trust, repeatedly, until I became nothing more than an empty shell, devoid of any warmth or compassion.

I made a solemn vow to myself that I would never allow my family to hurt me again. I promised to stand up for myself, to become someone who would make those who deemed me insignificant bow down before me.

I made a resolution to persevere and make the most out of my circumstances.

But amidst the deceit and pain inflicted upon me by my own kin, did I ever stumble upon love and happiness?

Let us delve into this matter, shall we?

Survival Journey

Fuck! You bitch Aiyla where the hell are you? It's been a whole day and yet I have not heard from you. 


How dare you switched off your cell phone and hide from me, I'm going to kill you with my bare hands, you fucking slut! 


Do you think you can get away from me so easily, no way in hell I'm going to cage you and make you mine forever? 


You are mine for better or worst you are only going to be mine. You are my obsession, an addiction that I can't get away from it. 


Only I have the right to do anything with you whether I beat you to a pulp, fuck you even when you don't like me touching you, abuse you mentally...you are only mine to do these things to you. 


Neil- Cruel Confession