"Ocean is strong power
 Ocean is our life
If you won't be able to
Survive against its wave
You die"
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Throughout my entire existence, I have wept incessantly due to my shattered heart and ruined life. The pain and suffering I endured, the loss of loved ones, the abandonment by those I held dear, the constant reminders of my worthlessness from everyone around me, and the relentless abuse I endured - all of it left me yearning for love that was never bestowed upon me.

It was my own family who betrayed my trust, repeatedly, until I became nothing more than an empty shell, devoid of any warmth or compassion.

I made a solemn vow to myself that I would never allow my family to hurt me again. I promised to stand up for myself, to become someone who would make those who deemed me insignificant bow down before me.

I made a resolution to persevere and make the most out of my circumstances.

But amidst the deceit and pain inflicted upon me by my own kin, did I ever stumble upon love and happiness?

Let us delve into this matter, shall we?

Survival Journey

The unexpected outburst of Aiyla stunned me, never have I seen her so aggressive in all those years we were together. 


Yes, I have always considered Aiyla as a strong and determined girl. That's what made me want to trample her in the first place. 


I wanted to break that strong Aiyla and wanted her to be fully dependent on me, in other words, I wanted to tame her and bound her to me for the rest of my life. 


But seeing this side of Aiyla made me appalled and scared. How can an innocent, naive girl like Aiyla be so Scary? 


She is not the Aiyla I know, it's like I'm seeing a different version of Aiyla today. 


The things she told me shook my soul and I'm startled to know that I disgust her so much that she cannot even bear my touches. 


The disgusting look Aiyla gave me made me more aware of what wrong had I done to her all these years. 


Unexpected Outburst