Thoughts

     I stripped. Only my boxers remained. Then I stepped into the tub. The water isn't particularly cold. Or perhaps it will with my dead body later. Naikuyom ko ang kamao upang mariing labanan ang tukso.

     At kapag sinabi kong tukso, those are the pathetic hopes that continue to nag me inside my head. Because I've already decided to end my life, and no amount of hope will ever deter me.

     I soaked my body at awtomatikong umawas ang tubig sa bigat ko. The water reached my neck as I sat on the tub floor. I held my chin for an instant, cursing myself for being afraid that the water would already drown me. Lumitaw ang kaputian ng balat ko sa ilalim ng tubig. I can see that my skin was too pale. Every time I move, my skin appears lifeless, like a moving glass with the water's graceful motion. Then I took one last deep breath.