Why my fate is killing me?

Mona's POV:

Suddenly I can feel someone is staring at me and I turn my eyes slowly to look at that person and the moment I looked at him I feel like I want to be buried into the ground from where I stand to hide my face...

It's the blue-eyed muscular man...

I don't know why I feel some weird feeling when I am looking at him, particularly his eyes, I lost my world when I am staring into his eyes, involuntarily my body is electrified and my heartbeat started rising fast unconditionally, I feel like I want to to look at those eyes for the rest of my life.

Suddenly he winked with one of his eyes in a teasing way and I immediately get into reality, he is staring at me with his smirk smiling face...

I am dead...

Did he notice that I am watching this so-called innocent man with this lewd serving girl?

Shit...

Shit...