My Decision

It's been about three days since Cassia arrived here and I still haven't figured out what to say or even how to act in front of her and I can tell that she senses something is off. Every morning I wake up at four in the morning to start my run and which can last for up to three hours depending on how I feel. Once back to the training grounds I head straight for the gym to lift weights oddly enough doing this helps to clear my head. It gives me the time needed to try and figure things out for myself within everyone looking over my shoulder. Once done training I go and find Cassia waiting in the kitchen with lunch ready for me. I have noticed more and more that she has been doing small things for me like packing me a lunch when she knows I won't have time to come back and eat or she will have a midnight snack ready for me when she knows I have had an off day. I feel bad for trying to avoid her but I just feel awkward being around her know that I know what she might be to me. After I eat it's time for a shower then off to the meeting with Alpha Brian and my father. I smile and tell her thank you which makes her eyes sparkle more then usual. I decide to talk to Aurora hopefully she might have some insight that could help me: Hey Aurora do you think Cassia is telling the truth is she our mate." She thought about it for awhile then answered me: Truthfully I don't know if she is or not. When she touches us I feel at peace but when we are apart I feel lost as if I lost a huge part of me. When she is in the same room as us I feel happy but wish we could be closer." That definitely answers how my wolf feels about her, but what do I feel? After the meeting was done I went to find Cassia I needed to figure out how I felt about her.

So I decided I would ask her to hang out tonight go for a nice walk or sit in my room and watch tv and just talk get to know each other better. It's been years since we have just been able to really talk face to face. I'm slightly nervous but I try not to show it which was way harder than I thought it would be. I know I care about her but I'm not so sure that it's the same as how she feels. I look all over the pack house but can't find her anywhere I try to follow her scent but it's faint so I go to her room no luck then I try out side to which her scent is stronger so I follow it. I keep following her scent which leads me to a giant rock and before I could start climbing up it there stood Cassia looking up at the moon. I was awestruck she was so beautiful with how her hair shined so brightly and her skin looked so soft: Oh Moon Goddess please tell me why you picked me as Claire's mate she deserves so much better. You know I have loved her since the first day I met her but she doesn't even want to be near me and I don't understand why. I thought she cared about me but it must have been wishful thinking." The whole time she was talking to the Moon Goddess I couldn't take my eyes off her she was so radiant my heart started to race I knew I had to get out of there. So I quietly walked back to the pack house knowing that she was hurt and crying because she thought that she wasn't worth being my mate. She had that backwards she deserved better Cassia was perfect in every single way and here I was hurting her because I didn't know what I felt for her. Now that I think about it I knew I had feelings for her but just didn't understand them.

As soon as she walked back into the pack house I grabbed her had to which Aurora started purring immediately which makes me laugh every time. I took her back to my room and sat her down on my bed and got down on my knees and apologized for being such a flaky friend and explained to her why I was acting like I was. I told her that I heard her conversation with my parents and that I wasn't eavesdropping I was just trying to find her. I also explained how I was completely confused about everything and wondered how she knew before me and why she kept it from me maybe if I would have known things wouldn't have been so weird between us. I told her that she deserved better then me and that she was perfect in every way that anybody would be luck to have her as their mate. She was crying yet again and I was the cause of everything way am I such a screw up. Just as I was about to stand up Cassia dropped to her knees wrapped her arms around my neck and pulls me close to her. I felt my mouth dry up I was speechless I didn't know what to do. Then her lips touched mine and it was like fireworks going off in my mind. Aurora was going crazy in my mind she was howling in pure delight. As soon as she pulled away I put my forehead on hers and just stayed like that for awhile.

After I finally caught my breath and remembered we where still on the floor I stood up and put my hand out to help her up. She took it ever so gently and stood up with a huge smile on her face. I don't think my heart can take it anymore I know what my feelings are I love her just like she loves me. I go and change into my night clothes then give her a pair of my shorts and a shirt to put on so that way she didn't have to walk all the way back to her room. As soon as she came back into my room we cuddled up and watched tv together until we both fell asleep. Once I woke up to start my run Cassia wasn't there which made me sad but it will be ok I got dressed and went downstairs only to find her making me a small morning snack with some juice and three bottles of water. I couldn't help but smile so I walked up behind her and wrapped my arms around her waist kissed her cheek and said thank you. I told her I would be back for lunch and that we would have to sit down with my parents and her Alpha to try and figure out what to do. We are still to young to live together and be together but I also don't want her to leave even though I know it's for the best. I can already tell this is going to be a very long conversation that truthfully I'm not looking forward to.