So I Can See You

Even though I can train in silence like this, and my Alm control is steadily increasing, something is missing. I know someone is teaching me how to use Alm, but if they can't teach me what I couldn't learn in my last life, should I just fire them? There's no need to waste my time. A great master would be hard to find… even if it's not for me, Cera needs one. The sooner she becomes stronger, the sooner I can relax.

I felt a bit of shuffling in my arms, it seems Cera is about to wake up. I stopped concentrating on circulating my Alm throughout my body and looked at Noire, whom seemed to understand my intentions and rushed off.

"Good morning." I looked at the sleepy Cera and she nudged herself into my arms.

"Good morning, Zara." Even in this early in the morning she's like this. A kitty through and through.

"I prepared clothes for you to change into, we got a bit dirty from last night's clean up, so let's go take a shower then we'll have breakfast."

"Okay." She squeezed herself into me even more and groggily, but happily smiled.

Seriously, this is bliss. I got up with her still in my arms and headed toward the new room I had them prepare for us. It was no longer on the second floor as my ice was still permeating through the hallway. I need to leave it there for some time in order to deceive anyone that comes in the near future to question the validity of the massacre. I need to lie and say I cannot control it very well yet and pretend to be unable to dissolve the ice. This may not be as spacious as my old room, but it's still pretty wide.

I put Cera down and we walked into the bathroom together. After a bit of splashing around, playing with her hair, and a few embarrassing moments, we got out feeling flushed for several reasons.

I saw that Noire put the clothes on the bed and I urged Cera to dry herself and helped her put on a dark blue ruffle trim A-line summer dress with a light blue belted ribbon.

"You look adorable!" I had her spin around a few times and praised her nonstop. Even though her body was still a bit famished from malnourishment, the summer dress was a bit baggy and it was guarding her past.

I simply put on another pair of similar denim jeans from yesterday and a black ribbon knotted blouse with long sleeves. I felt more at ease wearing something like this today since I was going to be running around, but I really wanted to try on a few of the dresses in saw in my closet yesterday.

"What's wrong?" Cera pulled on my sleeve and looked at me with worried eyes.

"No, it's just-"

She looked somewhat hurt and I didn't even finish my sentence. Right, I can't lie to her. Even if I deceive the whole world, at least to her, I will not lie to. I sterned myself and grabbed her hands.

"I wanted to wear a dress so we could match. I have things to do today, and I'll be running around a bit, so I can't. Just made me a bit sad that I won't be able to wear a dress today."

I had no real reason to suspect this, but I knew that if I let her talk right now, she would change into something else, so I pulled out of the room.

"It's time to eat breakfast, It's the most important meal of the day, so make sure you eat a lot. And… Even if I don't get to wear it, doesn't mean you shouldn't. You look really adorable in your dress… so at least wear it so I can see you."

I didn't want to turn around because I knew I was blushing. Ha! I can't believe I said that! Thinking back, didn't I say even more embarrassing things before? Is my sense of shame finally kicking in!?

***Cera's point of view***

It's warm. Yesterday felt like a nightmare, but I feel so secure and warm. This bizarre feeling only started when I met her…

"Good morning."

I saw her smiling at me and I couldn't help but get closer to her. Did she stay in this position all night? There's no way she slept while holding me. Yeah, it's this amazing feeling she gives off and the way she treats me that makes me feel this way. It feels like I have sun in my eyes.

"Good morning, Zara."

"I prepared clothes for you to change into, we got a bit dirty from last night's clean up, so let's go take a shower then we'll have breakfast."

I clung even harder.

"Okay."

She carried me into a different room from yesterday and put me down while leading me to the shower. I didn't feel anything the first time she did this, but now that her scary aura isn't here, I'm really embarrassed! She more or less did the same things she did yesterday, but she didn't explain anything and didn't talk at all. Although I'm embarrassed, when she washes my hair, it feels really good. I really like it when her hands massage my scalp. I wonder if she'll ever let me wash hers. Should I ask her?

After getting out she excitedly handed me a towel and told me to quickly dry off. Did all her embarrassment disappear? Her mood changed so fast! Is this because she can control her Alm better than I can? I need to learn how to do that!

She helped me put on a really cute dress. I've never seen a dress like this and it feels really nice on my skin. It doesn't rub or cause any itchiness. I never even saw my mom or sister wear something like this. I wonder how much it costs… did she really have to spend so much on a dress? I'll have to take really good care of it! While lost in my thoughts, she started spinning me around.

"You look adorable!"

She started calling me pretty, cute, adorable, beautiful, perfect. How am I supposed to feel?! Should I say something back? But she looks so happy just spinning me around and making me pose for her… this is really tiring.

After her she made me perform, she started putting on her clothes and looked at the mirror for a few seconds before I felt her emotions plummet. Did something happen? Why is she unhappy all of a sudden?

I tugged her sleeve. I don't know what happened, but I don't like that she's sad all of a sudden.

"What's wrong?"

"No, it's just-"

Right. I shouldn't overstep my boundaries yet. Even though she said she wants to marry me, it might be a bit too ear-

She grabbed my hands and I could still feel her wrinkly fingertips from being in the water.

"I wanted to wear a dress so we could match. I have things to do today, and I'll be running around a bit, so I can't. Just made me a bit sad that I won't be able to wear a dress today."

She just wanted to wear a dress? You got sad because I wore one and you didn't? I don't think she's jealous because I didn't feel her Alm twisting, but maybe? Though she said she wanted to match and because she couldn't do that it made her feel sad? Should I change into something else? Before I could say anything, she pulled me out of the room.

"It's time to eat breakfast, It's the most important meal of the day, so make sure you eat a lot. And… Even if I don't get to wear it, doesn't mean you shouldn't. You look really adorable in your dress… so at least wear it so I can see you."

My heart is pounding again. This is the first time she's ever said something to me that made her emotions so warm and chaotic… even if she's trying to hide her face from me, her emotions are giving it away. She's definitely blushing.