Memories

Year 2020

Day April 15 Time 0900

With the sound of the alarm I stretched my hand between the sheets and took the cell phone, more asleep than awake I managed to turn off the alarm and with a voice still asleep I woke up Hector who was sleeping with one leg out of bed and on his back, I got up from the bed and moved his arm.

It took me almost 8 minutes to wake him up and the first thing he did when he opened his eyes was to laugh at my newly awakened hairstyle, it made me a little uncomfortable and I said to him

Karla: ok... ok, a lot of laughter but we have to get up now.

We had to go shopping and go to my parents, that day we were going to stay with them and I wanted to do the market calmly and without the stress of people pushing and shoving you. We left around 9:00 and since we already had a list it was easy to search and buy.

We had finished most of the shopping around 10:15 am and it was where we saw the most people, as we only needed to buy some peppers I saw a laboratory that caught my attention.

A few months ago Hector and I were trying to be parents, but my hopes were flagging and Hector chose not to touch much the subject of fertility and children, but I had that desire, so I made an excuse and entered the laboratory, I asked for a gynecological examination and explained my situation, the test was not expensive but it was going to take me a while.

I told them that I would be back in an hour and I would have it done, so I went with Hector to my parents' house and pushing my mother away I told him

Karla: Mom, I need to go out again but I won't be long.

Luisa: Where are you going?

Karla: -speaking almost in a whisper- you see mom, I want to have a gynecological exam to see if I am fertile.

Luisa: Oh my girl, I already told you that it is not that easy, not all of them get pregnant at the first time, don't get depressed.

Karla: I know mom, but still... I want to do it.

Luisa: Ok, I'll cover for you.

I hug her and tell her that I am going to say hello to a friend and I won't be long, I lied in a way, I was going to see a friend but on my way back home, I went back to the lab and paid for the test, I had to wait a while since I was fasting I couldn't shake and even more since I had taken blood, then from there it was an ultrasound where everything looked good, but I still had to wait for the blood test.

From there I went to the store where my friend worked and I bought a cold chocolate to level my sugar, after talking to her for a while and laughing as much as I could I went back home and told my mom that I would have the results in 15 days.

15 days later

I was nervous and it was not for less, although I felt nerves of university thesis exhibition and with firm steps I returned to the laboratory and kindly they gave me the results, I could go home and see them but the desire won me, so I opened it and read it although I did not understand anything.

I asked to see the doctor and she explained to me about some low levels, plus my hormone imbalance due to my period, in short if I was fertile but I had to consume and take some things to have good levels.

Clearly this worried Hector as they gave me a slight diet to increase and consume little; I hugged him tight and told him the same words he always told me "do not worry everything will be fine", logically due to the covid and the crisis in my country I had trouble following the diet and Hector blamed himself, seeing him like that hurt me but I myself did not know what to do or say.