Guilt

In the large common area of the so called pack house. The wolves are partying, playing pool and ping pong. Some are on arcade machines, whilst others drink and chat on sofas. Laughter and chatter fill the room. The atmosphere is happy and warm. They are like a big family.

They certainly squabble like family, a couple of fights have had to be stopped. Vampires love a party too but I will admit, they are serious creatures. Politics and paperwork can be their party.

"The witch queen has agreed to join us. Reluctantly but still agreed. It seems the witch king is still infatuated by you. He's been sent on an envoy errand to keep him out of the way. The witch queen awaits your word". I nod at Janice "Thank you, any news on the boys?"

Just then the door is thrown open and Arlo slides across the floor "Queenie we're baaaacckk" I jump up and rush over taking them in my arms "Dante, Arlo I'm pleased you've finally shown up, but tell me. What complications?"

Arlo flops down on a sofa and takes a drink off of one the wolf's hands and swigs it. "I was staked" Beg your pardon? He notices my expression "No fear Queenie, I've lived to tell the tale" Dante swoops past and glares at the wolf beside Arlo. The wolf huffs but moves away.

"It doesn't kill us anymore. Just knocks us out. There has been attacks on the human realm. The king was on high alert. Didn't trust us. Ordered his men to kill any vamp they see. Armed with crossbows, a lot of crossbows. Anyway, it's all settled now the king knows of your plan"

It amazed me that they can casually talk about such things without a care. Then again, it's one of their charms. "Serpentine army?" Dante nods in acknowledgement. "Honestly, you boys can't go anywhere without causing trouble?" Janice huffs at them, hands on her hips. "Where's the fun in that?" Arlo says, taking another drink off another poor wolf.

I make my way down the hallway. I need something to eat. I'm starving. Not for blood but food. Food ? I've never needed food. I wander into the kitchen area and see an abundance of food on trays. I dig in, everything tastes amazing.

Usually if we impersonate humans and in a situation that requires is to eat their food. It's tasteless. We get nothing from it but this food is incredible. Satisfyingly full, I leave in search of blood. The familiar itching feeling in my throat letting me know, I need it too.

Back in the hallway, I intended leaving out the front door. I'm pushed against the wall, the lycan kisses me. I push him off. "Stop, this has gone too far already. Think of your 'mate'. Your pregnant one."

Guilt pangs in my heart. I shouldn't have done it. If I was still a vampire, I doubt I'd feel such feelings. "She's not my 'mate'. Not a fated one, given to us by mother nature. Lycans choose theirs. When we claim, our souls bind. It's quite different from the other wolves. In fact, our beasts chooses and now he's choosing you."

I should really read up on their ways, now it's half of me. "Be that as it may, I'm feeling things, guilt things and I can't continue, whatever this is" I point my finger between us. "Leah understands our way, she will always be the mother of my children. You are my Queen, I'm so drawn to you. My beast loves you" This guy, pfft sure!

My fangs are growing. No monster mouth, just my fangs. Without a second thought, I switch positions. Pinning the lycan against the wall, sinking my teeth into him. When I take the first drink of his blood. Instead of a purr, I let our a pleasing growl.

He is struggling to push me off of him. I'm too strong. I can't seem to stop either. "ENOUGH" he shouts out but it doesn't work. I notice him losing consciousness and with great difficulty, I'm able to pull myself away.

He slides down the wall, out of it. Fuck! Did I just kill the former lycan kings. Whoopsies! I look down at the potentially dead lycan but notice the bite wound is healing. A moment later his eyes open. He launches himself at me.

I wasn't paying attention and slam into the opposite wall. "The fuck was that?" he questions "I'm sorry, I couldn't stop. It's never happened to me before" I should really have someone chronicle all these changes.

"Your lucky I can heal fast" Really? "Or what? You'd haunt me to death?"

Our conversation is interupted, by an overwhelming amount of growls and snarls. I look over his large muscular shoulder. We are surrounded by large wolves of many different colours. "I don't think they like you manhandling their queen." He storms away punching the wall.

"Easy. I had it under control, go back to what you were doing" The wolves switch back to their human forms. Their very naked human forms and walk off. Janice arrives. "What was all of that about?"

I explain to her about the food and blood thing. The wolves protecting me. "Interesting, living both ways. Who knows what else you'll discover about being hybrid, I will have someone note these experiences down" This is why I keep Janice around. Not just the useful spells but she's on my wave length.

I walk back in to the common room and stand on a coffee table. I whistle, getting everyone's attention. "Tomorrow at sundown we will make our way to the vampire realm. We will launch our attack and take back whats mine. Not only mine, but yours. It is all one kingdom now." They all erupt in a cheer. "ALL HAIL THE HYBRID QUEEN" That's what I'm talking about. These wolves no how to hype one another up.

Arlo, Dante, Janice and I all take guest rooms. I took the one with the en suit. The bath is massive. Reminds me of a hot tub. I'm soaking myself under a blanket of bubbles. "Yoohoo" Arlo walks in not even remotely embarrassed by my nakedness.

I narrow my eyes at him "Oh please, we are surrounded by people who are naked 70 percent of the time. Loosen up" I was fairly loosened until he disturbed me. I sigh. "Arlo, what do you want?" He takes a seat on the edge of the bath and flicks some bubbles in my face.

"Wanna hang out? I'm bored." I slap his hands away from my bubbles. Splattering them all over him. "Now isn't a good time hun, I'm busy. Go bother your brother" He gets up "You used to be so much fun. I can't he's making a move on one of the she-wolfs" Typical Dante, always was a ladies man.

"Well go to bed. Have you eaten?" He nods "I had some human food. It was amazing. I suppose I could go a drink" He goes to leave "Arlo, I had Janet fill the fridge with blood after an incident earlier. We can't be trusted in these forms to feed from anyone"

He scoffs "I mean it Arlo. That's an order, make sure Dante is aware too. No one is to feed from a source until we figure more out" He stomps his feet like a child "This suuuuucckks" I hear you buddy. Just as I was starting to become relaxed again. Leah enters. Shit, I'm not in the mood to deal with this drama.

"Your highness" She greets and takes a seat on the lid of the toilet. No one knows the meaning of privacy anymore. "Let me guess, you've come to warn me to stay away?" She shakes her head. "I came to wish you luck on tomorrow's battle and to tell you I'm sorry I can't fight for you, but we know why"

She gestures to her large bump. Another pang of guilt stings me "As for Will, I know. I felt it. What you did. I don't care. My wolf hasn't been attracted to him, since your change. Made me realise, I don't care for him. All this time I've been blinded by my wolfs feelings. I ask that when you re-instate him, you let me relinquish my title."

This isn't going how I expected it, also the lycans name is Will. Will the Wulver, I laugh to myself "You no longer want to be Queen, what about your children? They are heirs?" Horrible, horrible guilt "I'm not leaving, I will be there for them. Always. I just don't want to rule beside him. Although, I don't know how he'll cope. I do all the work, I've been running this kingdom for years. He is just the figurehead"

Interesting. "It hasn't been lost on me, the way women are treated in this realm. I'm sure they'd deny you were responsible for the smooth running of the realm, if they were to find out. Leave it with me and I will find you when I make my decision" She smiles at me and exits. I submerge myself and when I come up. Janice stands there. I really should have locked the bedroom door.