Bad investment

After an hour, Chunhua came to wake me up. Actually, I was awake the whole time, but I just had closed eyes.

I stood up, changed my clothes and refreshed myself.

Then Huifen brought my lunch. Very late lunch, might I say.

While I was eating, I was thinking about suspicious way that emperor died. Of course, I don't care how he died, or was he maybe murdered.

Even though emperor fell sick yesterday, but it wasn't some terrible illness. He even recovered enough to hold morning assembly. Which he did. That's why nobody suspected anything.

Only when he was sorting through the documents in imperial study, he collapsed suddenly.

That's all I heard while I was waiting with my aunt in front of imperial chambers.

Well, his death is not really my problem. I wouldn't really want to serve an old man. So, him dying is a plus for me.

But his death also made extra complications for me.

I was okay with being a widow for rest of my life. But inside of harem, women without children don't really have good treatment. Especially after emperor's death.

And I'm only an unknown concubine.

I would probably be bullied by any cat or dog. Geh.

I can already imagine my miserable future.

Living in a tattered room, eating grass and drinking rainwater. Poor me.

If I only transmigrated few days earlier. I would probably somehow convince my parents to not send me to palace.

After all, I'm not really bound with fillial piety, so I'm not really obligated to respect their opinions. And I have sugar-coated tongue, so, at least I would try to sway them in my favor.

Like, Emperor is old, better choose some younger prince.

Plan for the future, I'm still young.

But I guess Li family was shortsighted.

They wanted immediate benefits.

Morons.

And their investment literally failed.

I just can imagine look of shock on their faces.

Ah, poor Li Suyin.

She knew what was happening, but couldn't choose otherwise.

She was bound with too many things.

Since birth she was doused with teachings of fillial piety, so she couldn't even be angry at her parents for selling her off.

Of course, she was disgruntled, but not truly angry. It just made her uncomfortable.

But she took that as her duty for family honor.

Ah, what a lie.

She just couldn't say no.

And then the news about engagement between her childhood sweetheart and her half sister finished her at last.

She kept her grievances bottled up, and then they exploded in a fury.

Which brought me here.

To deal with this crappy aftermath.

I was saddled with this bag of troubles, but oh, well, it's not like I never dealt with messed up stuff before.

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