Thinking about future

After the lunch, my aunt sent her first rank maid Caihong, to tell me latest news and information.

Apparently, vigil would be be held in batches.

After all, old emperor had too many important concubines and children. They can't cram them all in funeral hall.

So, basically, consorts would bring concubines and children who live in their palaces to hold a vigil for the dead emperor.

On first day, empress, now empress dowager and new emperor, together with children of late empress would hold vigil for old emperor together.

Tomorrow would Consort Gui do the same.

My aunt's turn was in five days.

And after seventh day, they would start letting officials and their wives to come and pay respects to dead emperor during the day.

Huh, so basically, we are hostages for first seven days.

We can't have any contacts with people outside.

Well, I guess that's enough time for new emperor to consolidate his newfound power.

Otherwise he will have a rebellion in midst of everything.

No one wants that.

Well, many want that, but not me.

There is a bigger chance for me to die if someone starts a freaking revolt.

Hah, and we can't even walk around the palace. Guards are everywhere.

And they monitor your every move.

Which sucks.

They are determined for us to not meet anyone. They can't let us make cliques and plot treason.

Well, at least that leaves me with enough time to sort out my brain.

I still have trouble thinking that I'm Li Suyin from now on. And my memories keep mixing with hers.

I know that I will have to fix my thinking sooner or later, but I'm not really ready to part with my past life.

I know that I can't go back, my old body is already dead.

But can't I miss things?

I worked hard for everything I own.

I came from very poor background and I struggled in the beginning because I got zero connections.

Somehow, I managed to survive and I was on fast track to success.

Why did that truck had to hit me?

I really can hold a grudge for a long time.

Okay, I died and transmigrated. Hurrah for me. I can see it as a second chance.

But I'm still little scared inside.

This is all unfamiliar to me.

I never heard about this dynasty.

And circumstances here are different.

Women don't have any real rights here.

I can die from a common cold here.

I can't travel.

I will be stuck in the palace for rest of my life. Or at imperial tomb.

Even if I remarry, it's not like I will have much freedom there either.

Why couldn't I be reincarnated in the future where I could space travel or something?

Why was I kicked to parallel universe still in their ancient era?

Let me cry.

Will someone join me so we can be transmigrator buddies, sharing joy and sorrow?

Pretty please?

Otherwise I will just curse you~