who is kai to you ?

I opened my eyes, it was foggy everywhere. it took me a while coming back to my senses but I recalled that I passed out while seeing kai leaving me behind. I got the same feeling again, feeling of when someone loving of yours is leaving and you can't do anything to stop them, seeing them leaving you helplessly. my chest felt tight and it was hard to breathe. I didn't realise why I was feeling like this back then but suddenly I busted into tears. it felt like someone was taking a child's beloved toy, it's hope, it's everything and the child can't do anything in order to protect what is his and just cry helpless.

I started to gain my consciousness and saw an unfamiliar roof. I restlessly started looking around and saw Max sitting on the chair next to the bed I was on. he was staring at me blankly. I realised I was in a hospital after looking around.

" how long I have been here" I asked with chocked voice

" 1 day "

" ahhh, you indeed are man with a few words "

" . . . . . "

" did you saw everything "

max simply nodded

" uhhh it's embarassing "

I took the tissue near the table and whipped my tears.

max in a gentle voice " he is a good man "

" what.., you mean kai "

" yes, he is a crazy person but deep down he has a really kind heart. you will never meet a person like him "

" ya right ! a person who goes around killing innocent people " the words came out of my mouth because of the frustration towards kai but I regretted saying it at the very moment.

" innocent you say..., do you even know how mafia works. we don't go around killing people, we kill those who deserves to die. we are no one to play with life of others they say but we don't enjoy it, it's just our way to handle things. do not underestimate us. " max with a cold voice and stare

" ..... " Arya with startled face.

" sorry I got ahead of myself but you should know that kai was beside you all the time. he just left for paying the hospital bill. he adores you more than anything. he can give his life for you.... I know you deep down love him too "

" I...I~~~ "

" no need to say something, just ask yourself.

who is kai to you and why you cried like that ?"

max left the room making me feel like I was doing some thing way more shitter than him with my life. I asked myself, was I really hidding my feelings not only from others but also by myself.

WHO IS KAI TO ME ?

DO I REALLY LOVE HIM ??

before I could think anything, suddenly the door opened with lightning speed and I saw kai with a worried face (almost near to tear up (TT) ) and he silently called my name.

" ARYA~~ " ಥ╭╮ಥ