CHAPTER 1 - PAIN and SORROW
How would you explain a Relationship………it is hard, right?
Just thinking about it makes my head throbbing………..specially constraining to a person.
But don’t criticize me for what I just said.
I am a very committed human being…….but unfortunately relationship is not committed to me.
Or let’s rephrase it…….'the person I’m in relation with, were not committed to me.'
How many men I have loved? Three? Five? Seven? I give up, I lost count. But the real question is, do I really loved those men who eventually left me.
But I don’t blame them……and the reason they left was……
‘Sorry, Rhian I fall out of love with you.’
Isn’t it heartbreaking to hear these words, from the person you have spent your years with? Then again as I have said I don’t blame them, it hurts.
I am Rhian Howell, you will know me much deeper as the story continuous………and how a person changes my perception towards a relationship…………….unexpectedly.
LOVE RELATIONSHIP that is.
Where I almost surrender and stop believing in it.
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“Manuel please don’t leave me, I’m begging you!” Bawled the woman to her boyfriend or ex-boyfriend….unfortunately it seems the man didn’t hear a single word of the woman’s cry.
The man just briskly walks out from the restaurant they dine in, unwavering of the woman’s plea behind him.
The young woman stumbles and almost lost her balance because of the man she’s running after, unmindful of the cold.
When the man reached his car, he immediately gets his car key in his left pocket, his about to open the driver's side door, but the young woman was fast enough to block the door and embracing the man.
“Manuel, please….I’m begging you don’t leave me I love you so much, Manuel.” Taking on the man not letting him go, sounding so desperate with a crack voice.
“Stop it Rhian we are already done…….don’t lower yourself to me like this! This is disgusting! You are disgusting!” Trying to remove himself from the young woman’s hold.
‘Disgusting…is she?’ She thought, but that is her less concern now. She will do anything to have him back…..if she will stoop down lowly, then be it.
As he got the chance to disengage himself from the young woman’s embrace, he forcefully pushes her away from his car door, which causes Rhian to fall harshly on the pavement causing her arms and knees to bleed.
The man successfully gets inside his car, the man called Manuel lowers his side door window and utter the un deafening words to the young woman who is still on the ground so shattered and breathing harshly,
“We are not working anymore Rhian and besides I already found someone else.” After he said it, he maneuvers the vehicle instantaneously, to get far away from the young woman he hastily abandoned.
Her cut and bruises are starting to feel painful, but instead of mending her wound, she rushes to the car and trying to catch the moving vehicle which her boyfriend, now her ex-boyfriend is in.
Sad to say, she was not able to reach her ex-boyfriend’s car.
With so much resentment, Rhian collapsed in the middle of the road……crying her heart out.
Why it’s always drawn to this…….every relationship she has, is constantly like this, every time.
What else she needs to do to make her relationship stay permanently?
She already gives her all……...nothing left from her, how can she cope with this heartbreak again….how?
“Why me! Why me! I’m tired……I’m so tired…..it hurt too much! Huhuhuhu!” Shouting to the nothingness that engulfs her lonely soul.
Embracing herself, feeling the cold breeze that touching her bare skin.
As she feels numb, feeling so defeated and weary…………she stands up, not minding the people looking at her…..walking to her car which parks near the restaurant they dine in………where he left her so ruined.
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The shattered young woman arrives in her older sister’s house disoriented.
With so much pain and grief carrying in her being, particularly her heart.
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Rhian Howell is an Olympian swimmer and also a professional swimming instructor by profession, as well as a ramp model on various occasions.
They are three siblings, two girls, and one boy……..Rhian Howell is the youngest of the siblings.
Her parents and her older brother are known to be a politician in the country while her sister is a defense Public Attorney.
The Howell family is a very immense name in Manila Region because of their history in genuine public services to the society without expecting anything……….it’s been passed through generations to generations, since time memorial.
Even though with their prestige and power they never take advantage of what they have.
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As the gate of her sister’s house opens, to accommodate her car……..she immediately ploys her moving vehicle to get inside the garage.
When she parked her car nicely, she immediately turns the engine off and making herself presentable to meet her older sister.
She takes a deep breath before exiting her vehicle, as she feels relaxed she then went outside her car.
She knows she has too much to explain to her sister, because of how she came to her house unannounced.
Her sister knows that if she’s coming to her house uninformed there is really a big problem that consuming her.
Before the young Howell could open the door of the house, since she already had a spare key given to her by her sister in case of emergency……..like now, she saw her sister with open arms in front of her.
Suddenly a rush of tears came pouring down to her reddish cheeks, she never thought she was holding until now. Without any hesitation, she immediately runs to her sister with so much longing and hugging her so ever tightly.
“Come let’s get inside, it’s getting colder here.” Her sister concerned, guiding the youngest Howell inside with so much care.
The young disconsolate woman pour her heart out crying in her sister’s arms, you couldn’t hear anything but whaling of desperate cry of sorrows.
The middle siblings of the Howell know that her sister is so fragile at this moment.
You have to be soft and gentle when you are talking to her.
They are now seating in the lounge area, Nadine her older sister stand up and went to the kitchen to get her some freshwater to drink.
Even for a moment, she could relieve the tiny grief she feels right now.
TO BE CONTINUED……….