I had no idea what I was doing.
I was happy that Robbie was acknowledging me. I was happy to see his eyes twinkle with pride and happiness.
But then why was I avoiding him?
We were okay, I guess.
He still stole kisses from me. He still groped me every chance he got.
And I secretly enjoyed his advances.
And I still missed him like crazy, though he was literally in the same house as I was, which made no sense.
I wanted to be with him all the time.
My body yearned to accept his body but...
But... I had no idea what I was doing.
I sighed!
I was excited to tell him about our project success to a point where that was I thought about 24x7.
Now, that he knew I felt like I had no real purpose.
Why was I excited again?
I knew he never loved me. I just felt like he did. I knew I was wrong from the start.
He loved his wife. I understood why he felt jealous and angry but he did not need go to Paris with his wife for that.