Chapter 3- Supine.

-5 days later-

"Yes and now we need to understand the meaning of these sentences carefully because when you focus on a poetry it's not just all about the words and meaning but the feeling you as an individual feel when you place your heart and soul against those words that you stringed together or maybe someone else did, always remember that poetry is like a drug. You can never get enough of it once you start feeling it in your veins, the very essence of literature pulls you towards it" I spoke. Tutoring little aspiring kids has always been a part of my daily life schedule, I don't consider it as a charity work but instead I consider this as my own mental peace. Looking at them smiling, looking at them finally having all these unlimited resources of books which they couldn't afford but are immensely passionate about is what makes my day.

"Y/n can we get some candies if we finish this right now?" Esme stared at me with her puppy eyes hoping that I'd be convinced, but unfortunately something about her eyes or maybe just the convincing look reminded me of Jungkook out of nowhere. The day he did the same to stop me from leaving the garden, unknowingly a smile makes through my lips as I remember the scene that happened earlier but soon snapping back to reality I absent mindedly nodded causing everyone to cheer up with a burst of energetic 'woohoo' or 'yes' gaining my smile back in an instant.

It's been five beautiful days since he's been here, having him around was soon something I was getting used to on a daily basis. Maybe thier would be a point somewhere when he leaves that I would feel incomplete without him by my side talking about his new topic, questioning about my life or complaining about his.

Regardless of everything, he's been opening me up without even realising. I enjoy when he talks about himself as much as when he questions me genuinely interested to know what's on my mind. Makes me feel alive and important, makes me look forward to what would happen the next day. People around me have been noticing the changes in my mood, Jimin couldn't believe his eyes the other day when I unknowingly smiled wide to myself during our reading class. He thought I was finally possessed and even pulled me to church but instead got smacked by me. I've been wondering if this is what being attracted to someone feels like but then again attractions are of multiple types even though the most common one is the romantic attraction it happens multiple times because compatibility is clearly possible between multiple people even if you are committed but still it can't possibly be the romantic one. I just need to research a bit more and maybe then I'll find myself the conclusion.

"Okay everyone, you know where to go and I'll be thier with the treats" I exclaimed as the kids cheered up before rushing towards the garden to have themselves a proper seat and enjoy the meal after working hard even though it was just a hour but still they are very much dedicated especially for just an age of 16 year old towards thier craft and I'm sure one day all of them will reach great heights. Esme, Neil and Victor: Esme was a bright hearted girl, always cheerful and full of energy. Light brown dazzling eyes with beautiful coal black hairs, her parents were running a bakery down town so it wasn't possible for them to give her much attention knowing that she recently got blessed with a younger sibling but still the little one is blessed with words.

Neil wasn't the most talkative until it came to having a conversations with me, he promised me that he'll marry me when he was eleven and let's say he's still working over it. His parents aren't alive any more but his uncle always works hard around the miles to provide them with a good meal so he's main motive has always been to work hard and soon achieve his dreams to provide his uncle with all the necessities so that he doesn't have to work around the dirt any more. To contrast this situation finally we have Victor, the purest soul you've probably ever seen out around. He shifted back to the main city once his father married another women after the death of his birth mother.

He was always tortured, physically beaten until when it reached a point where his grandparents couldn't watch his condition any more. His father would always assure them that everything would be okay but only for all of it to crumble back down once again. Therefore after moving back to his garden parents place despite of being rich all his life and still but even without all the comforts of his father's place he still does his best to help his grandparents. Helping them clean around the house, cooking and studying to his best abilities to achieve a position at a good education institution with his own ability rather than his father's reputation or money.

"Hello Sophie" I pecked her cheeks while placing the homemade cookies I baked earlier rather than the bread since I was in mood to offer a little special treat, "Oh little goose is done with her teaching I see" she chuckled continuing her preparations for the roasted duck we'd be feasting on tonight. Carefully pouring down all the milk I grab the tray tight before walking out to the little bundles of joy waiting for me impatiently. "Oh so what, I know if I kiss a frog then it'll become my husband" Esme showed off her little secrets as I walked in with the tray, "Help!" I yelled playfully as if I was in trouble to which as expected Neil immediately offered his help by carrying the milk jar and Victor did his bit by serving down the clean plates.

"Wow cookies! I love you so much Y/n!" Neil drooled over the melted chocolate and crispy crust of the brown dark treat waiting to be melted just the moment it clashes against the tip of his tongue only to burst down into multiple lip smacking flavours. "Y/n?" his voice walked in between all the other little voices making me nervous once again, the kids looked confused at the new face since it's the first time they visited ever since he moved in. "Hello Jungkook, early today?" I questioned a bit dazed up since his work doesn't end until a couple of hours more to pass, he's usually back by late evening or just before lunch with Namjoon. He smiled shyly, "Uh yeah actually Professor said that I should take my time today to just work on my personal research papers" the blue leather of his journal unknowingly shinning underneath the spring wings.

"Y/n who's this?" a tiny familiar voice of Victor interrupted before I could reply as I completely forgot about the main purpose here, "Oh he's one of the students" I clarified as all of them formed a little oh with thier not so tiny mouth as an understanding gesture since they are used to seeing multiple students all around even though it was a bit of surprise to see me interacting with one other than Namjoon. "Hello sir I'm Victor and these are my friends Neil and Esme, Miss Y/n teaches us our subjects usually but it's nice meeting you" he politely introduced himself as always while I cooed at the cute little polite gesture. Jungkook seemed surprise from the sudden greetings but it soon melted down into a pleasant and amused smile "Well it's nice meeting you too Victor, Neil and Esme but please just call me Jungkook" he now finally chuckled while replying as the three little musketeers immediately agreed.

"Would you like to join us for some Cookies, Y/nie cooks the best cookies in the whole universe" Esme offered before placing down another plate towards the empty spot for Jungkook to sit. Jungkook seemed a bit taken a back and conflicted since even though he was being offered, he still didn't want to interrupt something of mine which was adorable in my opinion, seeing him all confused and conflicted within himself. "If you have time then please have a seat with us, we love company" I smiled while placing down the cookies onto the kids plate one by one before placing the basket in between for Jungkook to have himself as much as he would like or the type he would enjoy more since I wasn't aware of his taste yet. "Thank you so much" he replied before sitting down on to the empty spot beside Esme while taking in some cookies excitedly, the same as the kids which made us all laugh out at his heart warming actions to blend in with the others.

"Milk?" I questioned him as he nodded while enjoying the taste of the cookies, not bothering to interrupt the internal conversation between his mind, soul and taste buds which was the same case for the others. "These are so good Y/n, you are really talented in everything aren't you?" he finally questioned while sipping down some milk to freshen up the chocolaty flow flowing all around. "Except philosophy" I joked to which he laughed whole heartedly, enjoying the moment we were in as he started to get involved in little conversations with the kids. It was truly a heart warming sight to witness, I never saw this side of him earlier because all the time he acted tough and sort of independent. The kind of independent being who doesn't need a family or a lover and is happy with himself and one night stands but I think that is just a cover because the real him looks very much in love with every fundamental elements related to having a little family and someone to share your life with.

"Jungkookie" Esme called out while Jungkook was having a playful fist fight with Niel, all of our attention was now on the adorable nickname she offered him even though they just met but still she's always kind and very much open to meeting new people and onto making them comfortable and happy. "Do you like Y/n?" she questioned out of blue making me and Niel choke on our breath, him because his little delusional wedding wouldn't be possible and I don't think I need any reason to justify why I choked knowing that I'm already struggling with my overflowing feelings. "What are you talking about Esme?" Neil questioned annoyed with a pout while Jungkook stared at all of us wide eyed and pink cheeks as if a teacher just read his love letter out loud to the entire class.

"It's just that the way Jungkookie looks at Y/n, it's like she's his definition of beauty and perfection. The way he steals glances at her once in awhile and looks away flustered even though she didn't do anything in return shows how he finds her in his thoughts multiple times and you can't randomly think about someone that way! It's definitely because he likes her" she confidently explained, how can she even have such a mature understanding towards liking someone and loving someone at such an juvenile age. "You have been going through way too many romantic poetry, she was re reading Romeo and Juliet yesterday again. Even if they are attracted it's none of our business to talk in between, they both are grown mature adult so don't embarrass them Esme" Victor immediately stepped in noticing the uncomfortable tensed up atmosphere that clouded us out of nowhere.

"Oh I'm so sorry I didn't mean to offend them, it's just they would look really adorable together" she nervously chuckled while sincerely apologizing to both of us because her intention was truly not to offend. "It's okay Esme, you see liking someone is different than admiring someone. I was just admiring Y/n and I think I don't need to explain that part because you all are well aware of how talented and hard working she is, an older person can always look up to the younger one in hopes of motivation and appreciation too you know?" he calmly explained as Esme nodded in response. Still doesn't switch the fact that he just said he was admiring me, the lub dub sound of my heart picking up it's pace. At this moment my sino atrial node really went crazy with the beating as at certain points I could feel my chest having the same contractions as a female might have while giving birth, what a peculiar way to explain that you are truly flustered.

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"Bye bye and stay safe!" I yelled for the last time before shutting close the gates and walking on the inside, the evening dawn already breaking through the ridges causing the dark mystic aura of the once pale blue sky to enlighten. "They all are very much well mannered and kind" Jungkook spoke as he was standing right beside me while waving them goodbye, we all ended up conversing and playing random word games without paying attention to the time so Jacob offered to walk the kids home even though they were capable enough to reach their places in no time but still now a days no one could be completely trusted so it's better to have someone trusted by their sides even though I wanted to walk them out my self but still Jacob offered to do so as he had to buy himself a new pair of shoes either way.

"They are, thank you for spending time with us today" I smile while continuing to walk towards the main entrance of my house as he walked beside me, matching each of my step with us which by now unknowingly turned out to be painfully slow even though if we wanted we could have easily rushed to the house under a minute but still we decided to walk slow for no defined reason I believe.

"The pleasure is all mine" he replied while looking away to admire the birds crowding certain corners of the sky marking the beginning of the soon turned down dark night, Seokjin must be already home by now I thought. "Y/n! Where were you? Oh I'm sorry hello Jungkook" Jin walked out with a concerned look as soon as we rang the bell before wrapping his arms around my waist being his usual over protective self only towards me.

"I was teaching the kids but the class stayed longer than usual, why what happened?" I questioned back genuinely concerned at why he was so worried over me. "Oh I was just worried, you know how I am. I didn't see you for the whole day today so I thought something bad happened and ugh anyways Jungkook you should get yourself fresh before the dinner" Jin smiled at him while offering his idea and before Jungkook could reply I was dragged inside to Jin's room by Jin himself. Playfully punching his arms I whined questioning what actually happened to him since I wasn't in mood to have a stupid argument over me asking what's wrong and him denying because apparently older siblings aren't allowed to showcase their true emotions towards the younger siblings, "What happened Jin?" I whined clearly annoyed by his behaviour while he continued to ignore me and soon locking the door from inside.

"Y/n I think we need to talk" he spoke up with his serious stern tone as his eyes darkened a bit, the atmosphere a bit cold and uncomfortable while I sat still knowing that he's dead serious. "I've been watching you and Jungkook around a lot, seeing that you've been communicating with him was a surprise to me but that being mentioned I hope you know that he's a 29 year old man while you just turned 19, just entered the adult world" I clearly knew where this conversation was going from the very beginning as soon as his name escaped Jin's lips with nothing but pure hatred for absolutely nothing. Unfortunately before I could interrupt he spoke once again while taking a seat right beside me.

"You are just starting your life while he's at a stage where he'll be married soon, he's the same age as me and you already know at what stage of life I am. How would you feel if one of your friends let's say Sora wanted to have any kind of romantic relationship with me? By the age I'd want kids she'll be just starting her career and most possibly outlive me. Didn't you see what happened with Yoongi? He married a girl who was eight years younger than him and much immature, she wanted more from life because she was at the growing stage of her life meanwhile Yoongi wanted to settle down with kids and then what happened? She left him for someone from her office who was the same age as her and had same dreams as her. Did you see what happened to Yoongi? He's lost now, taking therapy to cure his insecurities and mute. The once cheerful talkative friend of mine is mute just because he's too goddamned insecure to even speak a word!" I felt numb even though I knew Seokjin was over reacting as always but what ever he blurted out right now made me feel numb.

"Jinnie y-you are just overreacting, please don't worry. I'm not with Jungkook in any romantic or attraction kind of way but instead I see him as an elder figure and nothing more" I sighed feeling multiple emotions flooding over myself by now. How can someone care about outliving the other person especially when you are in love with that person? Is it the time and emotions you exchange that matters or the number of breaths? Isn't it the same as living alone for an eternity like a lifeless leaf rather than spending just one day with the person you whole heartedly love.

The reason why Yoongi's love left him was not only because Yoongi had different expectations but also because he changed her into a person who would fulfill his wishes instead of loving her the way she is. I still remember her crying all the time and wishing that her old Yoongi would come back because all he did to her after marriage was asking her to cook, clean and have kids rather than working even though he was well aware, we all were well aware about how passionate she was towards her work. She just couldn't stick in between the bars of low mentality even though when she for once in her life became selfish to live her life with someone who would love her the way she is people started to blame her and they still do without knowing the truth behind the story and that's how the truth remained untold because all she wanted was to live a happy life.

"Princess, my little princess. You know how protective I am about you and I don't want you to be in the same situation as Yoongi. Jungkook is a great guy, no doubt to that but unfortunately the time isn't the right one for you two but now that you said there's nothing I can finally calm down" Jin sighed before pulling me into a warm hug, his hands running through my hairs slowly just like how they did all the previous years of his life because technically he was the one who raised me.

He always wanted a little baby sister and begged our parents day and night and soon he was blessed with me, right from that day one whether it was attending my parents teacher meeting or feeding me food to singing me lullaby at night, he was the one who did it. "I love you Y/n" he whispered as I leaned against his touch and pulled him closer to feel my body relax, having an elder brother is possibly one of the most blessed and beautiful creation of god undoubtedly and that's something I'm thankful for since day one. "I love you more Jin" I murmured as my head rested against his wide chest, feeling his breath. At that moment surprisingly still the thought of Jungkook managed to cross my mind as I remembered the time we both passed today together and unknowingly another smile was formed on my lips just by the thought of his smile.