Murong Zhan's past (2)

Regardless of anybody's option, Murong Zhan made her his queen. Life went on and everything was peaceful and beautiful for them. But as a new emperor who had just taken over the throne, Murong Zhan knew that the situation wasn't as calm as it seemed on the surface. There were still many ministers who were dissatisfied with him as well many old ministers of his father that didn't take him seriously. To stabilize the situation and to establish his power, Murong Zhan had to fill the harem. After all, he was an emperor and his harem couldn't remain empty.

His queen just like her pure and simple nature helped and supported him in this decision. Though Murong Zhan never really loved or cared about the other woman in his harem, he still had to look after them. The only person he truly loved or cared about was his queen, his beloved, and his sweetheart. No matter how many women came into his harem, his heart only belonged to that one person. Like a good queen, she helped him peacefully manage the harem, she never asked him for anything more nor did she oppose any of his decision. And, this made him love her even more.

In one year of their marriage, his queen got pregnant with his child. He was happy to say would be an understatement. He was on cloud nine to know that she was going to give birth to his child and he was going to become a father. It was the happiest time of his life and he devoted most of his time to taking care of her personally. Maybe it was his doting and love for her, that made other women in his harem jealous of his queen. He never thought a woman's jealousy could be this stronger and darker that one day it would take away his queen from him. Maybe it was because of his powerlessness that he failed to protect his own queen.

Though he was ecstatic about her pregnancy, he was also alert enough to protect her. He knew that people's hearts were dark and all about the schemes that went around in the harem. It was very easy to lose a child in the harem. That's why, during her pregnancy, he was always there with her. From her food to her clothes, he took care of everything, not like an emperor but as a husband would look after his wife. Nine months later, his queen gave birth to a beautiful boy and he named him Murong Jinzhi. Just like his mother, Murong Jinzhi had one of the most beautiful pairs of eyes, purer than anything that he had seen in this world.

Time passed and Murong Jinzhi began to grow up. Their family of three was happy but who knew these happy days didn't last long. One day, his queen fell sick to the point where she couldn't even get up from her bed. When the emperor heard the news, he was scared. He summoned all the imperial doctors to check on her condition. However, none of the imperial doctors were of any help. They couldn't even find the cause of her disease. Days passed by, and his queen began to sicker and sicker. Her body got so thin that he felt as if she was almost about to disappear. Finally, that day arrived when his queen passed away. At this point, Murong Zhan felt that he was completely helpless. So, what if he was an emperor, the ruler above all, had all the powers that could control a person's life? All of this couldn't save his queen.

What was the use of having so much of power when he couldn't even protect the one he loved?

After losing her, Murong Zhan closed himself off. He didn't want to do anything, didn't want to see anybody, or didn't even feel like eating anything. But, as an emperor, he had duties and responsibilities that he couldn't neglect. That's why, like an emotionless being, he began to carry out his duties and made himself so busy that he wouldn't have the time to think about her. For an entire year, he never stepped inside the harem. His only routine was to work until he was tired and then sleep until he had no consciousness of his surrounding.

The only thing that Murong Zhan was guilty about during this one year was that he distanced himself from his son. Since the day, his queen died, he distanced himself from Murong Jinzhi. His son reminded him of his queen, so much that it began to hurt him. That's why he neglected his duties as a father and for the entire year, he didn't see his son's face. And, this mistake of his built a big gap between him and Murong Jinzhi that he was never able to fill.

This mistake of his made his son suffer from consequences that he never wanted for his son. During this one year, when he neglected his son, everybody thought that Murong Jinzhi had fallen out of his favor. When he was sitting in the palace morning over his dead queen, his son was out there, all alone, being bullied, being insulted, being assassinated, and being poisoned. When Murong Zhan realized the situation, everything was out of control. He was too late. His son, Murong Jinzhi was poisoned with a strange poison to the point where he would go crazy with bloodlust.

It was not this point that made Murong Zhan crazy. At the same time, he also found out that his queen didn't die of illness but she was poisoned, too. And, all of this was done by none other than his Noble Consort Ying. His son was also being assassinated because one day, he accidentally found out the truth about his mother's death. When Murong Zhan got to know the entire truth, he was made. He was enraged and filled with only one thought - to kill that woman and get justice for his queen. However, when he went to that woman, she was already waiting for him. But before he could he do anything to her, she accepted that she had poisoned his only son and if he wanted his son to live, he had to listen to her.

This was only one reason that made Murong Zhan spare her life and at the same time, recognize his helplessness. And, this was also the reason why his son hated him so much.