Immersion To An ‘Over’ Extent
It was at that moment something happened...
A spark of electricity struck me before the immersion fully commenced. It was as if there was something in my body that went through a rude awakening. It kept amplifying the surge of energy.
What was happening to me?!
I tried to take the Immersion Gear off as soon as I could, but accidentally put too much pressure on it.
My strong grip broke the headgear's release button. It made it impossible to take it off...
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My heart filled with panic. My head feeling a searing pain. Alerting me. Awakening me to dread.
I did something reckless...
"Argh!" A roar left my throat. My left head was torn off after forcibly ripping off the Immersion Gear.
However, it was far too late by then...
My body stumbled and tumbled. Hitting the table in front of my room's TV, I fell over quite pathetically.
My darkening vision looked at the TV's reflection.
The last thing my damaged eyes saw was my bleeding head. Burns had disfigured my face...
I knew that my life would end shortly...
How could I accept this?
Who was at fault? Was it my older sister...? No, my death was certain when 'it' amplified the spark.
What was that power that caused my death?
Blinking a few times, I found myself within the virtual world. There was no sky nor any ground.
Just a beautiful background image...
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A familiar mechanical voice resounded...
Even without prior knowledge, I watched enough videos to know this was an impossible error.
Once the Immersion Gear was took off, there shouldn't have been any way to transfer my mind.
So why was it still telling me to put it back on...?
I could barely feel my body in reality despite my vision seeing this hallucination. It was losing power.
And yet, my arms moved without my permission.
Despite the excruciating pain, my hands grabbed the Immersion Gear and put it back on my head.
I could feel it locking onto my skull once again.
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I didn't know why my body moved by itself, but the result was as expected. There's no way it'd work...
The feeling and senses other than my vision gradually vanished. Only my eyesight was left.
The burnt smell of my own corpse, the pain, and the taste of blood... All of it vanished in an instant.
What was left was being integrated into the Immersion Gear. My eyesight and hearing were left.
Wasn't I supposed to die?
Why was my Immersion Gear still active even after my death? What was that energy that killed me?
"I'm sorry..." Suddenly, I heard an emotionless voice. It was different from the VR help system.
It was someone I clearly didn't recognise...
"What did you do...?!" His apology made my eyes turn to him dreadfully. They were filled with hate.
And why wouldn't I despise such a person?
If he truly was the one responsible for that energy that caused my head to be electrocuted, then he was also the one who killed me. Now, my older sister was probably blaming herself for my death.
How would she even cope with losing me?
And so suddenly at that!
Why now?! Why did it have to be now?! Out of all the moments it could've happened, why now?!
"I will help give you knew life. Give you my Innate Gift, and-" Suddenly, I remembered that look.
"Steve!" Interrupting him, my voice resounded in this cyberspace. Wasn't he an estranged friend?
I remember... I'd met this bastard in primary school.
"Robert..." Yeah, he recognised me too.
"What the heck did you do to me?!"
"I can't tell you... There's no point thinking about it further. You'll never be able to understand why."
"I would if you actually told me!"
"It doesn't matter anymore..." He opened his hands to reveal five lights. They were passed onto me...
"What did you do?!"
"I passed my Innate Gifts..."
"Bastard, I'll make sure you die with me!" My hands couldn't reach him, but my killing intent was dense.
I just wanted to rip out his throat...!
"That's fair... but I have been dead for years." He spoke something that caused me confusion.
"Then how...?!"
"I'll be leaving now." He vanished from my sight and left me with so many questions, it made my veins pop. The anger and resentment this unacceptable occurrence only made me want to smash my head.
It was only after a few hours did I finally accept my abnormal circumstances for what they were.
The 'cycle' was complete...
Grief filled my blackened heart as I looked towards the amazing screensaver put on behind me.
The background suddenly changed...
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But I chose to ignore it for a bit...
In actuality, I was actually quite surprised at my mentality. Why wasn't I more distraught over this?
Then it finally hit me...
Something similar to this happened in the past. I was actually used to being 'trapped' in a way.
The traumatic memory of how my mother essentially abandoned me in another country hit arose once again. Not only was I left completely on my own, but I was left with my distant relatives...
It was in an extreme attempt to 'fix' my introvert personality, but their effort only made it worse...
I wish I'd never trusted them at all...
Conversely, my beloved older sister that always took care of me abandoned her previous life as my mum's 'dog'. She became more independent, while I only gained depression from rejecting my plight.
It was different from how I internalised it now...
Of course, the extremity of the two circumstances in my life and death were on vastly different levels.
Even when trapped in another country you couldn't grasp the language of, you could still adapt.
There was also the chance of going back home.
However, I didn't have that option now. Going back home wouldn't happen... because I'm now dead.
It made me ask the VR cyber assistant:
"What's going to happen to me?"
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"So I'm not ACTUALLY creating an Avatar?"
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This sounded different from what I heard...
"Explain."
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"So it's basically like the game I was about to play."
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Anyway... Geez, then isn't this quite simple?
All I had to do was pick traits I liked. Who I became or where I ended up didn't really matter anymore.
...I'll just kill myself if I don't like anything.
There's nothing to live for anyway. Even thought it was all Steve's fault, I felt so incredibly guilty...
My sister was probably crying her eyes out, and thinking of her tears just made me want to die.
I didn't want to become such a tragedy to her...
My self-esteem and self-worth had already been destroyed multiple times over the years, but I didn't want to show her that. I tried to look 'normal' on the outside, however... it can't be held in anymore.
The darkness in my heart was flowing out...
I just wanted everyone to die. Why did things turn out so ridiculously? Why? Why!? Why!!? WHY!!!?
WHY COULDN'T IT HAVE BEEN SOMEONE ELSE?!
"Are you choosing the 'target' whatever I point out?" I calmed myself to ask this question.
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"Then make me strong... and with nice features. I would also like it if my character's skill is something to do freezing emotions. Someone more assertive and maybe... a little richer than I was in life."
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"Just hurry along already." I didn't want to be here anymore. This place was making me depressed.
My consciousness couldn't even fade in here...
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I felt my mind weaken. New memories that weren't my own started to converge into my previous ones.
A realisation then struck me.
Now I knew what that bastard cyber assistant meant by incorporating unconscious desires.
To elaborate, let's just say that after feeling alienated in a family consisting mostly of girls, I might have sometimes spoke in anger that it might have been better if I had been born as a girl.
That was just my immaturity talking though...
Who would've guessed that such things would be incorporated into the new life I'd been given?
From what I remembered, my name was Wang Bingfei. My identity wasn't anyone special...
Just some random girl of the renowned Wang Clan within the Eastern Empire. Yeah... 'random'...
Actually, this was a Wuxia style world with Martial Artists. Though there was some differences.
The first being that 'Combat Gifts' were normal in this world. It was basically like a superpower.
The only difference was this required 'cultivating'...
Wang Bingfei of the Wang Clan was an oddity in her family, but a fortune one to say the least.
It had to do with a mix of different coincidences.
The Wang Clan's 'Foundational Art' cultivated the Combat Gift called 'Azure Water'. It was a Gift that allowed the user to completely control a limited body of water, but with a few benefits attached.
The first being that it didn't need to act like 'water' or even shape like it. Creating solidified H2O wasn't hard for the Wang Clan practitioners, and it was what allowed them to become a renowned family.
The second was how easy 'Yin Techniques' integrated into it, allowing the creation of ice.
This was what made me 'strong' in the Clan...
I clenched my fist and felt my five senses reawakening. It felt just like a game in some way.
The only difference was the synchronisation rate.
My eyes opened to see a barely decorated room the original girl with this body was used to.
She was such a boring person to be honest...
Born as the daughter of the Main Family, Wang Bingfei was one of the few who descended from a family that practiced 'selective breeding'. Any rogue practitioner with strength was married in.
Rather than throwing strong Martial Artists in general into the gene pool, only those who were naturally born with a Gifts were selected. They were naturally endowed with water type abilities.
This likely had to do with bloodline...
It seemed that the Wang Clan believed themselves to be descendants of a proud Azure Dragon...
...but that lineage had became faint in the past.
That's why they married in those with any type of water affinity bloodline they could find, until...
"Now this is interesting." I murmured while looking at the cyan tinted skin scattered around my body.
These used to be sea blue deformities on my entire physique. It once made this body look really ugly.
Fortunately, this was 'normal' in the Main Family.
What separated the Branch Families and Outer Members from the Main Family was their innate disposition. As a result of selective breeding, a sudden mutation happened within their bloodline.
And it was called the 'Ice Mortal Dao Physique'.
Members of the Main Family were born with this physical mutation with certainty even after they stopped selective breeding. It was almost like a curse on the lineage, despite how beneficial it was.
This physique allowed access to a natural Combat Gift known as 'Cold Heart', which boosted the user's mental fortitude a whole lot. It was a passive ability that multiplied the user's mental strength.
This made members of the Main Family cold and calculating, which is why I found her boring...
Wang Bingfei was a little like me to be honest. She was an introvert who liked Martial Arts a whole lot.
That's why she trained diligently...
Her room basically screamed what someone obsessed with only Internal Martial Arts would like.
It was dreary and only meant for mediation...
I considered it a waste of her natural endowments in the chest area, but it also made me admire her.
Wang Bingfei was lucky though...
Unlike the rest of her entire family, the diligent daughter of the Wang Clan mutated even further.
She gained the 'Ice Immortal Dao Physique'...
It was just one word difference, but the impurities in her body were purged to create a new body.
Her 'Cold Heart' even became stronger overall and became 'Frozen Heart'. It boosted mental fortitude.
Now... it felt like I could take anything on.
I took a deep breath and got used to the tingling sensation that came with my senses reconnecting.
After I was done, my eyes scanned my body with cold eyes. Part of my heart was already dead...
...but that didn't stop me from taking a look at myself. After all, my looks really weren't half bad.
Maybe this was a fortunate 'over dive'...
My looks were so damn fine. Like a typical ice beauty, my body was seductive in a lot of ways.
It's no wonder Wang Bingfei covered it up...
At first, having her looks more appreciated was a nice change. Though became annoying over time.
She was an Asexual. To her, guys looking at her in such a way was annoying at best and disgusting at worse. There were no good feelings she had towards her appearance other than 'being useful'.
Her appearance was different with me though...
As a straight male on the inside who had never had any sexual encounters, my body felt really... 'hot'.
Was I getting turned on by my own looks...?
No wonder guys sometimes picked female characters to play as. They were such eye candy~!
Who cares if it was weird?
I would tap that ass if I still had my junk. Now I could touch it, since this was my own body anyway.
Though doing so created a weird feeling...
Feeling my own hands grope my perky rear and bountiful chest created a weird sensation...
I wasn't sure what it was to be honest.
Maybe because a genuine woman's past was integrated into my memories, but my own body didn't seem to turn me on in terms of touch. It felt too natural to touch them without hesitation.
This turned me off...
Still, it was a waste to have this nice body hidden away by thick layers of clothing from the north.
A strange fire burnt underneath my frozen mind...
Wow, I'm so damn fine~
Taking out some of the gifts she'd gotten from her relatives and friends, I went deep into her drawer.
It was actually funny...
Wang Bingfei didn't know how to wear makeup or more casual clothes, but 'Robert Hawkin' knew it well. That guy, the once original me, even had some experience applying makeup on relatives.
It was one of the benefits of living with girls all my life. Even though the disadvantages were bigger...
Like only learning to independently shave later on in life, but knowing what 'eyeshadow' was early on.
Anyway, I prettied up this doll-like teenage girl.
Though it was more for my own satisfaction rather than anyone else. That's what made it chaotic.
I didn't like thick makeup. My natural skin was already pale because of my 'mutation' anyway.
Like one of those 'gals' in my school days. I applied some pink and blue nail polish on them randomly.
Fake nails weren't a thing in this world, but it seemed more advanced than I gave credit for.
Blowing on them with my intrinsic ice powers dried them pretty quickly, so I moved onto other things.
Woah, some of her friends were quite raunchy...
That quickly reminded me, wasn't breaking a planned marriage the first thing I needed to do?
I wouldn't be able to go into the Absolute Heavenly Ice Palace if I'm bogged down by someone else.
That's what my 'Master' told me anyway...
The Sect I was joining wanted me to be secretive.
It seems like my 'fiancé' isn't really that strong on top of it. Though that's not the reason I don't like it.
I was still a straight guy who liked girls on the inside, so it wasn't really something I wanted.
Maybe I should try letting him down easy...
Hmmm, was I technically gay now?
Oh, who cares~? It's not like I cared if anyone understood my perspective or what I thought.
With that in mind, I looked through the things that had been hidden away in Bingfei's large room.
Unexpectedly... it looked like some of her friends were expecting the marriage to turn out fine.
They even gifted her some raunchy underwear...
As well as underwear that didn't fulfil its role as underwear. Those kinky lingerie with holes in the most important aspects. Now... what kind of girl would wear this bra without love in her heart?
Probably someone who hated herself...
Oh yeah, that girl with self-hatred was me~
An emptiness appeared in my eyes as I tried it on once before taking it off. That looked so nice~
Was I going to discard it now?
Not by a long shot!
There was no reason to not put on multiple of these soft fabric bras. So I did exactly that.
Underneath the fetish bra was a more colourful one that reached all the way to my neck with choker.
Then on top of it I wore a skimpier string bra.
This created a worthwhile mix since underneath those three layers was a loose bound cloth bra.
The lower underwear was no different, but this time it was only two layers. Garter belted panties underneath with the hole one on top. Which had extended into wearing black stocking on my legs.
It was a nice start to my new outfit.
Since it would be a waste if this elaborate underwear couldn't be seen, I found a way to vaguely show them off. That's when I found an interesting 'nightwear' that looked decent.
It looked like a normal Cheongsam (Qipao), which were the clothes once popular for high-class Chinese women in Shanghai. The only difference was this black one I held was see through.
This wasn't what I wore though...
Instead, it inspired me to 'alter' one of my regular Qipaos using my 'Frost Infused' Azure Water Gift.
A big slit on each though, and some see through aspects near the chest was the alteration's results.
It made a charming smile form on my beautiful face. Yep... This was gonna cause controversy.
I didn't care one bit though...
My body was my own, and it wasn't like I was breaking any moral principles by dressing like this.
At most, my 'family' would be embarrassed...
Not that I cared... They always acted cold and neglectful to Wang Bingfei before her mutation.
The girl who I fused with didn't care, but I was a petty man who held grudges for a long time.
Last thing to finish off my dress was accessories.
Since I already had nail polish, might as well add some earrings and a necklace to go with it.
I put on the 'Yin Necklace' my Master gave me to stabilise my body and wore some heart earrings.
It was a blend between pink and blue.
It wasn't that I didn't like any other colours, but at the very least I kept a colour scene for my clothes.
Having one made me nicer on my own eyes...
And that was the point of why I dolled myself up.
It was at that moment that I decided to leave the room with slow steps. Getting used to the outfit.
As soon as I walked out the door, some of the guards who glanced at me dropped their jaws.
They were all frozen solid, unable to react properly.
And I was sure I didn't use my ice powers...
Since it was the morning and I was hungry, my feet stepped towards where 'my' family had breakfast.
My walk was smooth and somewhat cat-like...
Though the aspects of the Step Method known as 'Ice Walk' was incorporated into my movements.
I was eager to see their intense reaction...
It sounded like something fun, so I wanted to do it just to entertain myself in this new world I'm in.
Let's blow them all away...