Dear World,
I've lost her.
Actually I haven't. She wasn't mine in the first place.
When I saw her creep out of her room, I thought it was a good opportunity for us to talk again. Our last conversation was short but filled with laughter.
But no, I found her with Xander. They looked happy. She sounded happy.
When I heard him make his vows to her, I wished I was in his place. And when she said yes to his marriage proposal, my heart sank.
For the first time in my life, I the future king of the North wanted to be a knight. I wanted to be Xander, touching her skin and feeling her lips on mine. I envy him and because of that part of me despises him.
I don't know what I feel for Adalia and I don't understand it.
I just don't.
Archer
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