Chapter 38 Mother of female lead and her thoughts (01)

Female lead pov

One of the most memorable thing my mother said good or bad is

Emotion will stay through whole time till a person's birth and death, so throw out these emotions. At that moment she did feel emotions are waste but my sister did prove wrong by saying and taking an example

If she encountered a situation in her inter by saying when she felt an emotion there, may other time when she may feel that emotion but not in same situation.

Then how should I handle these emotions which are slowly killing me?

I know there are many people out there and they may even are in worst situation.

How can I help them?

For that I need money and I does not posses(posses- owing some quality) which can make me money.

Am I really useless as my mother said?

"That's the time I need to believe in myself the most as I do know no one is gonna come and fix my life."

"It's better to have no one to care about you rather than having people who tend to like they care about you."

FEMALE LEAD THOUGHTS WHEN SHE WAS 16

I am actually grateful as I was born like this. I do admit I still hate my life and I am suffering with anxiety and depression but atleast when I think about being born where no food is available. I feel grateful and sometimes it motivates to be rich and donate. so, atleast here maybe not be that much change but a small change is also considered as change.

The thought I follwed not to get any dissappoinment

When there are no expectations, we do not feel disappoined

There are sometimes where we feel useless but make sure to distract your mind because the worst way we can let ourselves feel is

1) We are not worth of it.

2)We are useless.

Author

I hope each and everyone of you can take care about your mental health and try uttermost not to make other neglect there mental health because our though process affects us in different ways.