Chapter 56: Seon-Ho

She ran before I could catch her...if only that bastard Bang-Won wouldn't have touched her...touched what wasn't his...then maybe she wouldn't have been scared and she would still be here besides me instead of leaving me alone with no answers and even more guilt than I started out with. I tried to run after her but Hwi held me back with a calm but confused look on his face, and told me to give his sister some space after all of that but I was too worked up and before I knew it I pushed him aside to deal with his precious Prince on his own so I could look for her. I started to immediately feel suffocated by this place; the King, his wolf children that were ready to eat any up for their own skins...and after everything that Yeonnie had uncovered I really didn't want to be here any more than I had to, not even for a second. I felt myself go numb and my head grow light, I felt as if I was floating on air as I made my way out of the palace...

I made my way straight to Ihwaru, ignoring Hui-Jee completely as I violently 'booked' myself a room with my sword ready at hand. I ordered the finest liquor for myself before the women came swarming in. I could help but to laugh; when I was a mere bastard I had no more than two women at a time fawning all over me, not that anything more happened. It was...curious. Not that I had any experience with women before, thou was close to it before all of this began. But since I had Yeon move in with me...it felt awkward to think about other women all of a sudden, never mind be near them. But now it seemed like half of the house women wanted to be near me...and was disgusted, I took a proper look at the for the first time; all wearing at least 10 layers of makeup. Yeon however...well it was true she also wore a lot as well but that was years ago. Her makeup now was really natural now. In fact, she sort of look more...endearing when she didn't have anything on her face at all. The Seo's had a lot more of a native look the I had ever seen. These girls were covered in fake jewellery I could spot a mile away. But Yeon wasn't materialistic in any kind of way; no when it came to accessories to decorations, despite the new wealth she had staying with me. In face, she was very minimalistic. She could make do with anything, no matter how big or small. What real hairs I could see under their luxurious wigs looked greasy and unkempt whilst Yeon had started taking care of herself a lot more.

Just thinking about Yeon was putting me in a bad mood. I thought she, of all people would be by my side to celebrate my achievements but I guess not...I was so angry that I started smashing all the cups and bottles against the wall. The girls began to scream and run away which I was actually grateful for, I didn't want any woman near me at all now. Hui-Jee came storming in but even she stepped back at the look on my face. I just looked at her, who knows when I last thought of her to be honest. She couldn't think of anything to say to me and that's when I realised how much of a mismatch we were. She was pretty there wasn't a doubt about that but she totality lacked he warmth that Yeon had just by smiling at people. If I were to be with Hui-Jee, she wouldn't be able to console me, comfort me, or even put me first like Yeon always did. She alway storied to console me in whatever mood I was in the house which was usually bad, she usually tired to make me smile and it usually worked. "Where are they? Tell me" I managed to blurt out I had never been so drunk before in my life. "Why do you want to know? Haven't you messed up their lives enough?" She started to walk away but I managed to bellow without thinking "WHERE IS YEON?!!" That stopped her in her steps and she looked back at me in complete shock. I couldn't stand to see the look in her eyes but before I knew it I had passed out.

I woke up what seemed like days later in Hwi's old home where I could hear him talking to Hui-Jee about what he was going to do about Yeon. The poor guy was clueless, but he was calm, which told me that he indeed hid this side of his sister from the world...even from me as much that pissed me off. I...still wasn't in my right mind for some reason, I was going in and out of consciousness and my visions was fuzzy for a while. I tried to blink a few times but all I could see and hear...was Yeonnie. I opened my eyes again and there she was in front of me; she wasn't wearing her jacket so I could see just how slender she really was behind all those baggy rags she had no choice to wear for years. She had minimal makeup on, the way she usually wore it when she was only at home, just the way I liked it with her hair out wildly. I was too stunned to say a word; I could only look at her through my tears and with my mouth open. She had a cut on her arm but I couldn't ask her about it, I couldn't still talk. She...she made her way towards me slowly with a worried look on her face, but when she looked in my eyes she smiled so brilliantly that I couldn't help but dissolve in my own tears. She looked sad and made her way to me so slowly but graciously that I thought she had turned into an angel; she bent down to me and laid besides me for a while, studying me as I could only do the same in return...before she started tracing my features with her fingers like she was in a trance herself. I felt my heart burst as I could only see myself in her eyes. I was really beginning to regret my stupid crush on Hui-Jee...and I even went so far as to end up regretting even sitting next to any kisengs every time I went to Ihwaru, let alone talk to them, when I had something so pure and beautiful in front of me the whole time; her touch alone was sending new sensations I had never felt before I my body that I had no control over at all. She didn't say a word to me the whole time and I really wish that she would, but when she was finished she gave me a look...a look I had never seen before on anyone let alone her...of passion, devotion and yearning...before she leaned in and kissed me...ever so gently but it was a full kiss...my first kiss...with someone who actually wanted to be in the same room as me let alone love me...I felt so many conflicting emotions all at once that I passed out again...