Chapter 80: Seo Yeon

I already had a trying morning with Hyo-Sonn who was in a bad mood about 'her love's' new rumoured fiancé and she was taking it out on me...until I lost my composure and she sound learnt not to mess me with again when she found my fist in her face. I was in such a bad mood as I busied myself in a corner of the archives since the bookstore was usually more lively in the afternoon so I had some free time to myself. I covered myself in scrolls and tried to take a nap in a corner where I wouldn't be noticed by anyone...

I woke up an hour or so later...with a hot imprint on my lips. It caught me so off guard I didn't even realise that there was someone who had come into the room that was usually empty...someone who in fact looked very familiar from behind...I went to assist him, only to be shoved onto the bookshelf with an arm around my waist holding me there. I was about to slap him but he caught my hand with his other arm and kept me there...until I recognised his scent...

"Why are you still avoiding me after all this time Yeonnie? Or have you cut our ties without me knowing" he was busying himself into a book so I couldn't see Seon-Ho's face but his tone of voice had me trembling a little...it was the one he used on the guards when I confronted him the night before we were to run away...it was so full of menace and it sounded dangerous, he actually had rendered me silent. "Well? Am I really that easily forgotten after housing and feeding you? Are you of all people really going to throw me away like I'm nothing? Like everyone else abandoned me?" I could hear the tears in his voice and I couldn't control myself and I enveloped him in my arms without thunking about it "NO! You know I could never do that to you and I don't see you that way! You...were the one who told Hwi that a blade would be thrown my way if he didn't work for you! I saw you traipsing out of Ihwaru to drink with plenty of women before trying to go for my brother's woman! How on earth can I trust you! And...are to be married now anyways I hear." it wasn't a lie but I was ashamed of myself for using that as an excuse...but what am I supposed to do? Just drag him down with me on an unstable path? With a girl like me? I didn't even realise I was crying until he wiped my tears away....I didn't even realise that we were both in such close proximity of each other for the first time...I tried to push him away gently but he wrapped his arm around me so hard and leaned into me so closely that his face was resting on my forehead. I froze as I felt his lips wonder around my head before he cupped my face into his hand...and he kissed me.

I didn't know what to think, feel, say or even do. I wasn't expecting anything like this at all...I never thought he would come back home to me like this...like an insane stalker than my husband -to-be...and since when did he start looking at me the way he did? Since when did he start talking to me and acting the way he did? When did he...what the hell happened to him in the war to make him so...ruthless and cold? I had all of these thoughts racing in my mind until I realised he was still kissing me...and I was kissing him back without realising. What the hell was I doing? I couldn't indulge myself like this...I tried to push him off of me but the more I did he started to grab me and not let go until we were one...until he was finally out of breathe did he release me. My fears and tears had fears had all turned into anger at this point and I wanted to beat him up so he would try to understand me but somehow he was one step ahead of me as he stood behind me and held my arms so I couldn't reach him. I tried to wrestle him but it was all in vain; he still held my arms with his one hand and he grabbed my face with the other, putting my ear to his lips "you don't fool me Seo-Yeon. You know I had no choice but to distance myself from you in front of my father...if I put myself before you even once he would have you murdered in your bed, so do not insult me with these petty excuses. And..." he turned me around so I had no choice but to face him "Do not even think about using Hui-Jee as an excuse to distance yourself; she's been in love with your brother since the day we all met. I've long forgotten that stupid crush for years. Now...forget about this stupid fight that you are putting up. Since the moment you agreed to run away with me you are mine. And don't even think about being around anyone else, because I'll slash them to pieces with my sword. And before you say anything, your brother gave me his blessing to make you my bride once I've settled into my job properly, so don't even think about hiding, because I'll find you wherever you go. And if you don't trust me enough to believe a word I say today then juts go ahead and try" his anger got the best of him and he threw me onto the ground before walking away and taking his guards with him. I just stayed on the floor and cried my heart out, unable to decide what to do next. I didn't see this coming but now I could see that none of my excuses were going to work; no matter what I did or say. Then...then my only option was to show him how hard my life was if he chose to be with me...it was the only way.