6. He's back

"It was written I should be loyal to the nightmare of my choice":- Joseph Conrad, Heart of darkness.

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I came out of the principals office with so much relief. Firstly I wasn't in trouble and secondly I wouldn't miss one of my favorite subjects. And, turns out the reason they called me was because  they wanted me to tutor one of the new students as they're parents requested that they needed extra help.

"So, as one one of the best performing students I saw you fit to take this task and do it well", the principal said ealier.  I was happy that they saw the capability but I was a little bit hesitant about giving him the answer so I told him that I would get back to him the following day.

After the first period Megan and I sadly had to separate as she was going for her history class.  I got inside mine and sat in the first row. Got my poetry book and read one before the teacher came in requesting that we read and analysed a short story. Time flew by and before even noticing periods chnged and soon it was break time.

I came out of the class straight to my locker and changed my books before going to the library.

Something seemed to have energised the girls today.  They all seemed happy and chatting loudly.

"Brie !", someone called behind me. I turned around and saw Megan running my way. No not her too. Or am I imagining things . Everyone is in a good mood. Did I miss something?

"Oh my God!! You won't believe this ", she squealed.

"What's wrong with you", I aksed.

"You won't believe this but I'll let you guess first ".

"Ok. Umm you passed your history test".

"No, I always do that.  Ok I'll give you a hint. Something I said this morning ".

"Were having icecream after school?".

"Yes I said that but no".

"Can you please tell me already ", I was growing impatient.

"You remember that new boy I told you about this morning ?".

"Uhh not that again ", I turned and made way for the library eating my apple.

"Guess what he's in my history class and he's hot ", she squels.

"Does Alex know that ".

"Don't start with me do you think you can close the topic loke tha...", but I hit on something hard like a chest and all the books and papers I had in my hands fall and some of the papers scatter . I bend down and collect as much as I can while he does the same thing before they could step on them. 

I stand up as he picks up the last of the papers. He stood up and he's taller than me with only a few inches but I still had to look at him at a higher angle.

For a second it was if my eyes were deceiving  me. I scanned the boy standing infront of me with dirty blond hair. He took big steps towards me and stretched out his hand  for me to take the papers.

My mouth fell open as recognition dawned in my face. As if someone had suddenly sucked all the oxygen out of the room I struggled to breath.  I know those  Grey eyes. I looked at his sculptured body all the way to his perfected face, his long jawline and straight nose. He had a jock built body.  He'd grown up over the years.

What is he doing here my mind questioned. Isn't he supposed to be gone.  I didn't know that he was coming back.

'He didn't even say goodbye so why were you expecting him to tell you that he's coming back ', my inner voice argued.

His mouth curved up into a smile but before he altered just one single word the woody smell of his cologne sent sparks down my spine.

"Hi", he says in a deep voice. I look at him still in shock. He has the nerve.  He sure does. He leaves without saying goodbye or maybe telling me that he would leave. Doesn't call call for such a long time and ten years later he comes back thinking that I would welcome him with warm hands. Well then he must be mistaken because I wont.

"Aren't you going to say anything to me? Didn't you miss me?", he asked and chuckled afterwards.

"I despise you. Don't ever talk to me again",  he gasped quickly, I snatched the papers from his hand and running to the bathroom with Megan shouting my name behind me.

I hurriedly threw the door open and came in placing the books on the sink nearby and cried.

"Brie what's wrong?".

"Megan that's him ", I say inbetween my sobs.

"Who?".

"Tadashi".

"Yes I know its Tadashi they introduced him in clas... wait a second do you mean thee Tadashi ,the one who left without...Oh my goodness I'm so sorry I didn't know that it was him", she says pulling me for a hug. 

"Did you know that he was coming back ?".

"No ", I said in a muffled sound.

This was like stabbing a heart and leaving the wound untreated and the put salt in it. The void wa still there. Not only me but my soul also felt that void and betrayal on not keeping the promise and that's how I'd been feeling for the past ten years. It qa sas if I heard the cries and how my parent held me when I saw that 'For sale'  board infront of their house. It was all unreal and happened too fast to take in bcak then.

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The rest of my day was spoilt. I felt like the following classes took forever. I was far and not by any chance close to the planet .

I'm doing my senoir year and can't change schools now and not to mention that I didn't have the momey to change. My life is a mess and this just added to more of my problems. 

How was I going to stand being around him. Simple, don't talk to him and hate him. He deserves nothing from me not even a single greeting.

When The last bell of the day rang signalling that we would go home.  I was having the last one alone so I would find then in the parking lot. Looking for them in this crowd would mean waisting my time.

I went to my locker for the last time.  Some one tapped my shoulder and I met the face of Rebecca. She's part of the poetry team and hands me a paper.

"What's this for?".

"I was looking for you in the Library today but I didn't find you. This is the list of themes you're supposed to chose from. Snap , I almost forgot about that one.

"Thank you ".

"You're welcome, bye".

"Good bye ". I tucked the paper in one of the exercise books and put it inside my bag. I tried walking as fast as I could, wanting to get out of these walls as soon as I could but as I was going something caught my eye.

Jessica the Schools Queen B was pressed on her locker in a heated up make up session with a boy. But his hair looked familiar. I walked to them so that I could male sure if I was seeing the right thing.

I pushed him away from her and my suspicions were confirmed. It was him. His dirty and wavy blond hair made me think it was him while I was looking at his back.

"What are you doing", Jessica yelled and slapped me. I felt the stinging pain of the slap but it was nothing compared to what I felt. The multiple stans were unbrearable

"Brie", he said in shock. "You shouldn't have seen that listen I....", I didn't want to stay there and listen to his excuses.

I felt betrayed, right now, ten years ago and mostly was my heart. My heart betrayed me. Why did it choose to be loyal to someone who never carrd enough to say good bye or say hello when he was gone.