What pain is to me

pain comes in different ways it's fast like rain.

I try to escape but I become trapped

trapped inside of my emotions. thinking that I will be accepted in a new place but it brings pain. my heart pumping with anger,: loneliness. sadness and

thinking that the people I need would be there but

no one understands. they make fun of me

taunt me

and make me feel insecure about myself.

I was in love and I got nothing but pain in that love I got nothing but humiliation. i thought I was stronger than your words stronger than your despicablenesss. but I am weak

without anyone in a week to see my pain. to feel my emotions.

why the heartless heart to me why the pain to me

why the loneliness to me and why the sadness to me.

i want to feel free

and yet you make feel cadged

like a criminal.

what did I do to deserve this

why do you always make me your victim. why am I the only one who cares

but no one else cares.

being judged

made fun of.

I thought I was in the light

but I was in the darkness.

they say the sun will rise in your darkest our.

but darkness keep on following you

making you weak

thought I was strong but the pain long

life is too short

but the pain feels like it's long.

a tiny heart

but it has feelings

my life without emotional support

my heart without someone healing it.

the sourness of life

makes the tears bitter

my heart sings I thing and that's pain.

flowing through my blood

reaching the heart

feeling the heat

going to memory lane. since that's lake

to imbrace it

thinking that there's grace

to help me find my way to happiness.

but will I ever find it or will it be pain.