22. Steady

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"You steady me and stir me all at once."

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Adrien's POV/ Chat Noir;)

Alya walks into the room with a frown, as well as Nino "I feel so bad for Mari," Alya sighed and sat down on one of my chairs.

"How did it go?," I asked.

I was worried this entire morning since I couldn't attends Anthony's departure due to my father saying no and locking me inside the house, I was just worried about Marinette and how she was going to deal with what was going on.

"Marinette cried a lot and so did Anthony," Alya mumbled.

"It felt like I was watching 2 main characters saying goodbye forever in a Korean drama man,"Nino frowned "I even cried just watching it."

"I mean how can you not, you can tell how much they mean to one another, Marinette's dad had to hold her hand back before she can jump on the plane with Anthony," Alya turned to Nino.

My eyes widen at this "what?," I mumbled.

"She wanted to go with him, I love Marinette, so much, but I know she isn't happy here, I mean of course we see her smile once in a while, and sometimes I see her act like herself, but we all know last night for the first time ever we saw how Marinette genuinely smiled," Alya mumbled "and it was all because she saw Anthony."

"Yeah," I admitted.

Last night when I saw how happy Marinette was, when I saw how beautiful she looked in her dress, when I saw how much effort she put into making herself even more gorgeous than she is made me realize something I kept trying to push away.

But.

I knew she doesn't feel that way, and I have girlfriend and I wasn't going to try anything knowing Marinette has feelings for someone that is good for her, and that I have my own problems I needed to fix.

I wanted to make her smile like Anthony did, I understand why Anthony is so attached to her.

I mean everywhere she goes the room lights up, that's just how it has always been.

And god do I wish I was him to see her with that expression on her face everyday.

"Why did Anthony have to go back? I mean he seems happy here and he's passing every class, I don't understand," Nino mumbled.

"He's really attached to his mom since it's only been just the two of them when Anthony's dad passed away, plus he has to see what he's going to do in the future after taekwando," Alya said.

"Did Marinette ever tell you what he was planning?," I sighed.

"Well in the beginning they were planning to stay in China while Mari studies for fashion and work beside Anthony for payment, but now he's saying he doesn't know what he wants to do," she rubbed her head.

"What? Is he like getting married or something I mean why so suspicious all of sudden?," Nino laughed.

"She was going to move back?," I mumbled.

"Yeah..," Alya mumbled.

"I didn't know that."

"No offense dude but ever since Kagami you lowkey went into y'all's own little world, I'm not blaming you but we kind of grew up and are thinking of our future, and that's what Marinette was doing," Nino sighed.

It went silent for a bit as I let what Nino said sink in.

"Uhm- we're gonna head out! I'm gonna go visit Marinette, bye Adrien," Alya stood up and grabbed Nino by the arm before pulling him out.

"Damn Nino really called you out," Plagg laughed as he sat down on my computer "but he's not wrong."

"Plagg," I warned.

"Okay okay," he lifted his paws up to defense.

"We're going to Marinette's, Plagg Claws o-."

"Adrien your father wants to speak to you," Nathalie knocked on my door.

"Crap," I grumbled annoyed as Plagg flies away to hide.

"I'm going," I sighed.

I open the door to see Nathalie looking exhausted and frowning up at me.

"I'm sorry you couldn't go say bye to one of your friends Adrien," she smiled lightly.

"Thanks," I mumbled, I knew it wasn't her fault, I know Nathalie tries to convince my Father to let me go out, but I never really listened and I would've gone but he made Gorilla stand outside my window this entire morning.

"Would you like to go out on a date with Kagami, we can see when she will be free?," She tried to cheer me up.

"Uhm no, I need my alone time," I mumbled.

"Why's that? I always thought you loved spending time with her," she asked.

"Kagami is always here, I-I just don't want to see her right now."

"Are things not going well with you two? Kagami always said everything was okay, you guys seemed happy-," I cut her off.

"I'm anything but happy, maybe you should ask me," I rolled my eyes lightly "tell my own father to ask me about how I am himself then ask from my own girlfriend."

I walk into his office without knocking only seeing Kagami laughing with my father.

I'm not going to lie and say I was glad my girlfriend was getting along with my own father, in fact I was jealous and annoyed that my father payed more attention to her than he ever did to me in just those few minutes. I watch him and her happily speaking to one another about god knows what. I was jealous that she actually got his attention more than I did, I was annoyed that he showed her affection more than he did to me.

And Kagami knew that.

She knows that's all I wanted from my father and sometimes she likes to taunt me with little comments like "I'm closer to your father than you, maybe I'm like his real daughter," or "I'm your father's princess." Those comments in so many ways hurts me, because as his own son I never considered myself his!

I can feel my eyes water.

"Adrien what's wrong?," Nathalie looks at me with a sad expression.

"This is so stupid, I wanted to be left alone," I mumbled.

"Adrien!," Kagami ran up to me and grabbed my hand before pulling me towards my father.

"Maybe you shouldn't grab Adrien-," Nathalie tried to stop her.

"Son I have decided to let you go out with Kagami to go to the movies since I didn't allow you to go to that thing you wanted to attend this morning," my father mumbled.

"The farewell," I sighed.

"That, Kagami spoke to me to let you out today," Father smiled at me.

"But when I try to ask you for something you say no," I rolled my eyes.

"You know you would be stuck in this house if it wasn't for Kagami-," Nathalie tries to cut off my father.

"Gabriel stop-."

"No, I'm too busy for such things as parties and taekwando matches and so are you, and finally when I do let you out you're complaining about it. Kagami is always sticking out her neck for you, and this is how you show her that you're grateful."

Bullshit.

"I'm tired of my friends having to come see me at my house! I'm tired that I even have to ask you to go out when I'm practically an adult! And the fact that you're closer to my girlfriend then me is really sad, bullshit that I'm busy, that's just you Father and it will always be you!-," I bursted out.

"Adrien!," Kagami yelled.

"I'm leaving and I'm no longer asking for your permission," I mumbled before walking away to my room and began to change.

"Adrien what is wrong with you?!," Kagami entered without knocking as I was changing my shirt.

"Are you serious, knock!," I yelled and put on my t-shirt on quickly.

"I don't care, what is your problem? First you speak horribly to your own father, then talk down on me, are you seriously upset because you couldn't go to that guys farewell?," Kagami walked in front of me.

"You don't even know my father," I mumbled under my breath as I began to pack my clothing thinking of staying over at Ninos for tonight.

"I know him more than you, and I know he works so hard for you and that he cares so much for you and you barley show him attention."

"Get out," I said as I felt my heart shatter.

"Get out Kagami," I said louder.

"I'm not going, and you can't make me," she rolled her eyes.

"Adrien is everything alright?," Nathalie knocked.

"Get her out please just get her out," I said to Nathalie who quickly came in my room noticing the tears running down my face.

"Let's go," she grabbed Kagami roughly by her arm and started yanking her out.

"Get off of me," Kagami grumbled to Nathalie.

"You're hurting him, let's just leave."

"What? He's being emotional all over again for saying the truth?! It's not my fault he's not close to his dad."

"Leave! Gorilla take her away," I hear Nathalie order as I hold myself and grabbed my bag before seeing Plagg fly into it and I began to run down the stairs.

"Adrien come back here!," my Father called.

"Adrien where are you going? At least take the credit card," Nathalie ran up to and slid the card into my back pack.

"What are you doing stop him! It's dangerous outside!," my Father yelled.

"Let go of me Nathalie!"

"I can't I'm sorry but I can't let you go! He needs to be alone!," Nathalie cried.

"I know my son more than you!," he yelled.

I hated this.

I finally let out my true feelings.

"I hate him..."

"Adrien...," I heard Plagg sigh.

"It's okay," I sighed and began to walk to Ninos.

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As I began to reach his street I notice him and Alya playing outside chasing one another.

I stop in my tracks and bend down.

"Aren't we going in?," Plagg asked.

"I don't want to bother them with my problems, what if we go to my place?," I smiled softly at him.

Ever since me and my father started to disagree in a lot of things I have saved up for an apartment with my modeling money. When we would get in huge arguments like this I would sometimes just leave and stay there for a week or so, I didn't feel like being alone tonight, but seeing Nino having a fun time with Alya made me not want to ruin the mood with my situation.

"Sure bud, what if we drop off your stuff and head to the movies? Or just get out," Plagg tried to cheer me up.

"We have duty today," I mumbled reminding Plagg about looking after Paris this week.

"Kid you're not doing okay what if we skip tonight?"

I really wanted to, but... I wanted to see Marinette.

"No I'll be okay," I said.

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As we enter my apartment Plagg quickly flys out my bag and goes to his section where he sleeps, well his room.

(Just a small drawing of Plaggs area in the apartment)

Instead of having him sleep in my bed and probably be squished by me, I ordered a dollhouse bed and stitched up some old fabric to make him some pillows and a mattress. I got him his own phone to do whatever and for some reason made me connect it so he can text "someone."

I didn't mind buying him things he wanted but at the same time it has been difficult to find things for his size.

I walk into my bedroom and lay down on my bed before getting on my phone seeing Multiple messages from Nino, Nathalie, and Kagami.

'I heard you left home from Kagami whatsup man? Why didn't you stay the night?'-Nino

'Answer me'-Kagami

'Let's talk Adrien, I'm sorry, let's fix this yeah?'-Kagami

'I'm sorry for what happened Adrien, your dad meant well I mean it'-Nathalie

'Adrien stop being over dramatic'-Kagami

'I went to Ninos where are you?'-Kagami

'Why aren't you answering?'-Kagami

'Adrien. You're being very rude to your girlfriend, just at least answer her.'- Father

I laughed at my Fathers message and began to cry.

After everything that happened tonight he tells me I'm being rude to my girlfriend, he isn't even worried where I'm at or how I'm feeling for christ sake I can be Akumatized and he wouldn't even blink an eye.

This was so pathetic.

My life is so pathetic.

How can a Father not worry about his owns sons feelings, whereabouts, and problems.

How can a father act like this and show no remorse or even that he cares.

I would've thought he would've cared after we lost my mom, but that's wrong, he never cared for me.

Realizing my emotions were getting the best of me I sighed and got up to make myself some tea.

"Let's go out and patrol," Plagg flew beside me.

"I was going to make myself some tea, but sure I need the air right now," I mumbled.

"Okay."

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As I jumped on house to house I realized my body was leading me to Marinette's home.

Not trying to make it obvious I sat a home away from hers to only be able to see her roof.

I sat down in a crouching position and sighed.

I sat there for about an hour waiting to see if she walked out, I waited for another yet there was no sign of her.

I knew I wanted to see her to make my day a tad bit better, yet I knew she wasn't having such a good day either.

I just-

I just wanted to see her.

I needed her right now.

"Adrieeennnn," Plagg groaned.

"I'm sleeping and hungry," he complained.

"Just a bit longer," I mumbled.

"I'm hungry thoughhhhhh, I want cheeeseeee, and we haven't moved from this spot for the past 2 hourssss," he sighed.

"And when I said let's go out to patrol I meant jump around and do dumb things not sit down and do nothing on a roof of a houseeee."

I rolled my eyes trying to ignore his voice.

"Adrieeeennnnnn," he sighed.

"Adrieeeeennnn pay attention to me."

"Can we go? Please please," he begged.

"No," I mumbled.

"I wanna go home and sleep," he complained.

"You and I both know when we get home you're playing video games all night and never letting me sleep," I grumbled.

"But- I don't do thatttt," he lied.

It went quiet for a minute "okay maybe, but can we go hmmm?"

"No."

"Can we go home now?"

"No, stop asking, tonight's our night to look over Paris," I sighed annoyed.

"But why are we outside of Marinette's house?," I've been caught.

I close my eyes trying to gain control of my anger and annoyance.

"Plagg please... be quiet... please," I begged.

It went silent once again but only for 3 more minutes.

"Look it's Mari- she's," Plagg calls as I quickly open my eyes and seeing her in tears.

"Crying," I whispered as my eyes widen.

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(Yeahhhhh I was thinking of writing this chapter longer and adding not 1 but 2 more MariChat Art for you guys in the next one;) it's just I want to do more art and have fun with it ) art is on wattpad ;))