I Should've Told Him Sooner

Henri

I should’ve told him sooner. A part of me just wanted to believe that like everything else in my life that had changed for the better this would too. But hearing Edi say she wanted to leave, confirming what I’d always known would happen, reminded me of the bitter truth—this was who I was and was doomed to be forever.

“I’m never having kids,” I said, just spitting it out.

His expression was almost comical, but I couldn’t conjure up even the tiniest of smiles.

“Okay,” he finally said. “How does that make you a horrible person?”

“Look what I’ve done to Edi!” I said, the tears once again coming en masse. “Only someone disgustingly selfish and horrible would do that. And it’s because I’m a horrible person that I won’t ever bring a life into this world. My parents were monsters, Aaron.”