As I looked over at her, it struck me how beautiful she was. Her hair was blowing carelessly in the wind, a halo on her head. I had the oddest impulse to reach out and touch. See if it was as soft as it looked. Her lips were curled into a soft smile that radiated warmth. I wondered who or what she was thinking of and my heart skipped a beat imagining her smiling for me. 

It's crazy how i never noticed how blue her eyes are. Or how her laughter sounds like summertime. It's strange how I never really looked at her. And suddenly i couldn't stop staring.

Chasing Sunshine

The three weeks leading up to graduation were quiet. We studied, wrote finals. Viv and I went to the ice cream parlor many times and were hardly separated. It was nice, to spend some time with her before we went our separate ways. 


I wished that I could have spent time with Saahirah too but I knew that it just wasn't the right time. So I kept my distance. 


I'd be leaving Ravenswood earlier than others because I was going to Queen's University. Viv would leave the same day as me because she was attending NYU. 


Spencer was leaving with me too. The plan was always for him to transfer to Queen's with me. I didn't know how I felt about that. Spencer's whole life was here. But he was okay with uprooting it for me. And maybe I should have been okay with it too. 


On the last day of finals, I sat in the backyard, thinking about how drastically my life had changed in just a few months. How I had changed. 


25 • Graduation