Chapter 30

Ash face showed misery, because in a way he had i life like Hazel, he was abused by his dad and older brother... the old memories came running back, and he remembered that the only time he felt loved and carefree was with Hazel, when she deserted everyone, he had cried for days, knocking at her door, begging at her to come out, but she hadn't.

After her went away, he used to sneak in her room and find pieces of paper, he used to sit in the moonlight, reading them, with tear running down his face, she was a broken shard, but she still knew how to reflect light, so young but her words showed her sadness and misery. She herself was broken but she made an effort to write a small book called 'HOPE'.

*A few extracts of 'HOPE' a book which i will write next on webnovel*

YOU ARE NOT USELESS. READ THAT AGAIN.

YOU ARE WORTH IT. READ THAT AGAIN.

YOU ARE LOVED. READ THAT AGAIN.

I AM GLAD YOU EXIST. READ THAT AGAIN.

YOU ARE NOT A PROBLEM. READ THAT AGAIN.

YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. READ THAT AGAIN.

YOU ARE NOT BEING DRAMATIC.

You're not a burden to anyone, don't be afraid to talk, to use your voice. You're beautiful inside out. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. READ THAT AGAIN.

I WISH I COULD HUGH YOU RIGHT NOW, SO A VIRTUAL HUG WILL DO.

It hurts me to see you're in pain :( you deserve so much man, don't let your emotions control you. Don't let them get the best of you. I love u I love u I love u I love u I love u please don't go. I am sorry that no one is hearing you, I am sorry no one is noticing that you have lost yourself. I wish I could take your pain away, it hurts me to see the pain in your eyes. I love you through my words and I mean it. I just want you to stay, hold on a little longer okay? Please? For Me.?? I hope you have an awesome day/ morning/ evening/ night. If it's night for you, go to sleep, I know it's hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don't let them fight you. If it's day for you, don't start it by such sad music, I know it's impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it's evening for you, you're probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it's okay to feel the way you feel. You don't need to be scared, of course you're overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn't? But it's important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you're stronger than you think, I know you will make it :) Now wipe those tears away and smile for me, you really don't know much a smile can brighten someone's day, do you? I hope one day yours will become a genuine one where you don't need to fake it anymore, because I can't say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You're worth more than every fucking cent in this world. Remember crying is not weakness, let it out as much as you can but don't let the emotion control you by giving up. It's okay, you're here, you're safe, you can let it out. Did anyone asked you, how you are feeling today? If not, how are you really? I don't think you're doing good, but you will feel good at one point. Don't give yourself up. I am sorry you feel misunderstood. But anyone who gets to be with you, doesn't know how lucky he/ she/ they is :). Enough with beating up yourself for today, okay?! - The stranger that cares about you more than anything. I hope this is enough for you to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. I hope you can stay. This is your sign to stay and treat yourself with love, you deserve it.

And in case no one told you, I am proud of you... ALWAYS

*END*

Ash remembered her words, etched clumsily onto the paper, he didn't understand why? all of a sudden he was having snippets of the things, of the past he wanted to forget, with visible difficulty he composed himself and the soldiers shot darts at the boys and Hazel, and they fainted.

The last thing Hazel remember was Ash whispering, kneeling beside her.

'Just hang in there'