01 - “Me”

I believe in my very own idealism, albeit not following in it. What do I mean? Easy, for example , not attending class because your IQ is high enough that you don't have a need to attend class but because of society scorns and judgments, you become the adversary of everyone; being the most popular in a bad light. However, that's not my reason in not following my idealism. The reason is simply because by abiding to the common fools mindsets and opinions, I don't become someone controversial enough to be in their daily little pointless conversations and I still remain superior while of course, knowing I'm the only one that knows about it. You can call it hypocritical of me but I'm not one that entertains the idea of "idle talk".

Anyways, enough of my own cowardice or bravery, depending on how you perceive it. I'm strange in "normal" context but I don't think I'm strange, just normal but in my own way.

When people reach the apex of their life, the time where most would say, I wish to return to or want to quickly get to, is the "teen or youth" time period. So what comes to your mind? Just ordinary teen stuff such as groups of friends chatting, spending the days together, going out with each other, and etc. You know what I mean, if not I suggest you get out of this book since your IQ is not high enough.

Moving on, that very typical "teen or youth" what is to be expected in everyone's life. And yet I can't seem to recall of me having that experience. Well, I don't wish for it because it's pointless and useless. When we are at our "teen" stage, I don't bother myself to be like the majority, but I don't stand out too. I work my ass off everyday studying while not talking to anyone unless deemed necessary. Why? Firstly, studying is everything. I do not agree with the common stereotype of how studying equates to success but I see the impact of having academic excellence. So why do I not talk to others unless deemed necessary? My thought process is this, "why should I interact with somebody that is unable to in any possible ways give me back the same value of me having to stop what I'm doing and waste my time communicating with?" You can call it anti-social and whatever terms you would use but I'll gladly take it as an compliment albeit not agreeing with it. See, a millionaire wouldn't conduct business with a beggar, reason? The difference of value.

Same thing applies here. Teens gather themselves in groups to make themselves feel secure because they think that they have someone they can confide in and feel a sense of belongingness, to be seen as normal, yet I do not understand this stupidity.

Truly, what a plethora of sham.