It was the middle of class and the clock was ticking faster than ever. I felt as if the air was being sucked out of my body. The chair was getting harder to sit on by each passing second. I started to look around the classroom to get my mind off of the pounding of my heart in my head. Honey was in the back of the class talking to michel a member of the bucket boy's. A smile bloomed across her face as she slowly made eye contact with me. My heart raced and my lips quivered. I could picture the place I would be punished vividly. I swiftly turn around. The more I thought about it the more anxious I grew.
My pants were getting tighter, and my thought dirtier. I needed something else to calm me down. I wanted to tell the world about how anxious I was. Not just thoughts of how I was to be punished later after school, but about how I dreamed of honey every night. I dreamed of the perfect date we would have, just before I ask her out. I start to lose myself in imagination. The voices drowning out in the class room. The empty walls of the class room starting to shape honeys face. "Mr. Alan," a soft voice starts to break through the silence, but I choose to ignore it and continue my day dreaming. "Mr.Alan," the voice repeats. I wave my hand in dismiss. THWACK "MR.ALAN!"
I jump up, startled. I quickly fix my self, wipping away the drool from my mouth. The sound of the teachers ruler hitting my desk had silenced the class. Their eyes gazing and burning my back. The anxiety I thought I had gotten rid of came flooding back tenfold. I could hear honey at the back of the class talking and giggling. I slowly glance back, our eyes meeting, sending shivers down my spine. The look in her eyes said she enjoyed my embarrassment. I could feel my face becoming hot and flushed. She still kept eye contact as she talked, while biting her lip and tapping her foot. I knew what it meant and it made me even more nervous than ever. THWACK " MR.,...ALAN!"
I hastily twist around in my seat. The teacher glared at me. Her ruler shaking in her hand. "are you okay teach?" I say in a cautious tone. The teachers eyes blazed with rage. Shes always had a reputation for yelling at kids and hurting there feelings for disrupting her class. Don't get it wrong, her hurting kids feelings isn't just kindergarten teasing or some cliche threat like I'm calling you parents!. No, she made it her business to know everyone's personal life. If you had a family reunion, she was there. She knew every little thing about everyone. From there baby photos to their first masterbation. "AM I OKAY?" she yelled. I braced myself for what was going to come. To my surprise she marched back to her desk and started to fill out a piece of paper while continuously glaring at me. The class began to laugh, honeys gaze getting stronger.. I start to wonder when did I become such an embarrassment, But nothing could compare to the embarrassment I would face later after school.