He's Over-thinking

Our breaths were getting together. We were about to join our lips, just then, abruptly, The door opened once again. "I-" we were stopped by my little sister. We both split apart and laughed feeling embarrassed. My sister spoke, "when are you getting home?" I was relieved that she did not misunderstand. I answered back saying, "soon, tell them that I have some work to do in the theatre." She nodded and left the room without any questions, maybe she knew things would get worse if she asked any questions. Jamie then packed her bag, she continued to act normal and pretend as if nothing happened, just like I did too. "I'm going home Rich." I nodded and she left the door, without turning behind. I felt like I broke her heart or some precious feelings, she had for me.

"It's okay. Meet you tom." Said Jamie once she came, because she forgot to take her hairclip. I smiled and felt relaxed. Later that night, I went to my hideout. It was dark but, it was my safe place. I took out my journal and started writing down my feelings. I think it was just a wrong thing to fall in love with someone so early, it wasn't the right time, I thought. It was that feeling of enthusiasm that your instinct just knows that they're the one you have been waiting for all your life. It was that kind of feeling for me. Jamie was a feeling of de-stress and comfort. If I was wrong about all this, why would Jamie also get ready to kiss me on day one? Our love felt so magical and just the beautiful fantasies it was just going on.

I closed my journal and walked towards my home. The song on my phone continued to play, I was still having the feeling of romance and comfort Jamie has given me. And, not going to lie but If destiny was really alive, it would be us. There was one thing back on my mind, What if Im the one having plenty of feelings for her? Or is it too soon for me to fall for anonymous. I still doubt If my feelings were real or were of a teenager. I knocked at my door and waited for my mom to come and give me a huge lecture, as usual. It was almost two in the morning, and how could a conservative family be happy for their kids. They would obviously be imagining me going out somewhere and having fun, About my sister, sometimes we shouldn't trust her too, because she can also be the one trying to aggravate my mom.

The door opened and my heart started to race, it felt so scary. My dad's voice came in, "Oh, you're home?" He questioned, sarcastically. I was confused and trying to understand what kind of thoughts my parents were having. My little sister let me in, and she walked me towards my room silently, when my mom already fell asleep. I breathed with relaxation that my mom and dad really thought I was working for the play, very hard. My sister spoke, taking me into her room, "What were you doing with Mrs. Jamie??" She teased with a playful smirk on her face. I calmed down myself, and replied, "You know her?" My sister nodded and answered back with an obvious statement, "She's our mom's favorite neighborhood child in this universe." I was unclear, how could my whole family know Jamie, while I dont. "She moved into the other lane, recently, She's a writer and the in-charge of plays in theatre." My sister continued. "She's the one who suggested the tutor for both of us." I was startled when my sister said that.

I bobbed my head in reply to her, She questioned once again, "You guys in love?" I smiled and replied, "I dont know." She continued to speak, teasing me, "Oh, I saw you guys with red hearts in your eyes, for each other." she giggled softly. I answered back, pretending to be tired, "Im so tired, I need to sleep." She laughed knowing I was lying. "Okay, get lost, a boy in love." I walked out of the room, controlling my laugh. Later, I sat up in my room, reading one of Mrs.Celie's classic short stories, THE DARKROOM. It was an iconic start to her career, this book brought her everything she wished for. Since the previous years didn't have so much horror and romance, Her book paved the way. It showed the flavor taste and beauty of books. It was just a magnificent book written by her, every detail she explains and the turns of the novel makes me acknowledge how important is it to enjoy your present and not think about the future or past all the time. "All it does is spoil you." Is my favorite line from her book. No one writes books like her, and no one can reach her standards.

The room of silence suddenly sounded a meow from Elle. She missed me, just like I did. She rolled down and showed me her tummy to pet her. I chuckled and pet her gently. She purred with affection, I just loved how cats were built. They were just the most independent living beings on this planet, and that's how I'd love to be. Independent and be happy for the people in my life. Yes, that was what I wanted. And, honestly, taking decisions was confusing me so much. I couldn't stick on one for a long while, but as much as confusion and unclearness I had. I had more understanding and patience about things. I would never upset myself in the first place now, I decided. I felt that the only thing that upsets me was expectations. Having expectations made me feel worse about everything I really had in my life. "Let's not expect too much." I thought to myself. While At the moment I already ended up talking about cats to my expectations of people. Which was obviously overthinking and nothing else.

Until, suddenly started to think about Jamie, once again. Who was she? Why did I like her so much? I turned on my phone, and text her given number, "Thank you for making me feel happy..." I typed and backspaced until I received a call from an unknown number.