Chapter 3

"Nicky,Nev,Anna darling hurry up or we will be late." Daddy called out for us. It was the happiest day of my life. It was Nicky and I's 6th birthdays and daddy was taking us to the park then go-carting. Mummy was pregnant with our little sibling, and everyone was really excited and happy. We got in the car and started singing our hearts out. The car was full of cheer and happiness. We turned in the highway and then CRASH!

I woke up shaking and crying I couldn't stop myself.

If it wasn't for me Tamika would have been here with me right now, if it wasn't for me my dad would have been with my mum right now and mum wouldn't be a workaholic. If it wasn't for me my little sister would have been with us. It's all because of me it had to happen, I caused it and I will never forgive myself for it. I killed them all, I killed my dad, my unborn sister and Tamika. Worst of all I killed my mothers happiness.

I went downstairs and made myself a bowl of ice-cream with strawberries and chocolate shavings.

I went to the tv and started watching whatever was on it. It was around 4am and my mum was sleeping and so was Tamia. I started thinking about how life would be if all them were still alive . I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't notice my mum coming down the stairs.

"Honey." My mum called out for me.

"Hey mum." I smiled weakly at her.

"Hey baby, why aren't you in bed?" She asked me and I could hear the concern in her voice .

"I-I-I ummmm I just woke up." I told her tears threatening to spill from my eyes.

"Come here my darling. Do you want to set another appointment with your therapist ?" She asked me .

I just shook my head yes with silent tears falling from my eyes.

After talking to my mum and discussing about the therapist,she told me she would book an appointment on Saturday. I got ready for school wearing my joggers and hoody with my sneakers and hair tied in a pony tail.

I put some makeup to hide the bags underneath my eyes . When I got to school I went to my first lesson which was literature. We were discussing about Romeo and Juliet and I ended up not paying attention, lost somewhere in my thoughts. Literature passed by in a blur and I went for my next lesson which was Dance. I hugged Tamia goodbye and went for my lesson. I changed into my ballet kit and started doing some stretches with some other girls in my class. Madam Avril called everyone upfront and we started doing some routines for the day.

I went to my next class which was Biology . Whilst I was hitting down my notes I felt a tap on my shoulder and it was Jake.

"Ummmm hey you are Nevaeh Tamia's best friend right?"

"Yahhhh that's me." I answered Jake.

"Ummmmm yahhh I just wanted to greet you, Tamia was telling me about you yesterday on our date." Jake answered nervously, scratching his head.

"Yahh sure okay." I smiled at him and went back to writing my notes.

When it was time for break I went on an adventure to find my best friend. I found her sitting at the back of the cafeteria crying. I quickly rushed to sit next to her and hugged her.

"They splitting up." Is all Tamia said whilst sniffing. I took her and and told her that we going home because she couldn't stay at school when she was like this. When we got home Tamia ran upstairs and I decided not to follow her because I knew she needed some time alone.

2 hours later she came downstairs and sat next to me and laid her head on my laps. Absent mindlessly I started massaging her scalp whilst she let out a few sniffles there and there.

"I miss her." Tamia told me.

I didn't answer her, silent tears started flowing and we spent the rest of the day like that.

Tam fell asleep on my laps and i moved her gently, replacing my laps with a pillow. I took a blanket and covered her with it. I went to the kitchen and started cooking her favorite dishes: lasagna, chicken pot pie and lasagna.

I went up to my room and started drawing. After a while, I took a shower and went downstairs to see Tam eating and watching tv. I joined her on the couch and started watching mean girls with her.

"At times I forget that you can cook." Tam said with a little smile forming on her lips.

"I just don't like cooking for no reason." I shrugged my shoulders. I then went to the kitchen to take some strawberries.