Chapter 7

Clara

When I told Brent the news , he didn't seem okay . He gave me a look I hadn't seen in a while... I remember the look very well . I had seen it when we talked about his sister Laura and his parents. The day Andrea passed away and the day he almost lost Andrew and me...

" Honey bee , What's with that look?"

He swallowed hard and held back tears. He raked his lush brown locks, held my hand and looked back at me.

"What look sugar?"

"You are not a Rosanerri... "

He chuckled.

" Na ah ... But I'm a Carlyle . I'm just happy to be able to look into your eyes again . I just realized I wasn't there when you woke up and got transfered. I was busy having breakfast at the canteen a full breakfast so don't...

Some of the old staff asked me if I was coming back. "

"It wouldn't be a bad thing. Besides . You were good at what you did . You still love it I can see it in your eyes. I miss calling you Doctor Carlyle. "

"That's beside the point ... The only way I knew was your chart . You are right though I miss being in the physio ward ... You are two months ..."

I took a deep breath and nodded fearful of his reaction I took my hand back placed it on my tummy, which didn't show any bump...It was also the same with Andy. Brent must have seen the fear in my eyes cause he reacted defensively...

Oh my word he was doing it again fiddling with his watch strap. He put his palms to his face and after three seconds of silence he spoke.

"I'm not going to do what I did six years ago. I have changed and you know that. You know me better than I know myself . I wish I could change what I said and did but I cannot. I get it okay... I get it."

" You say you get it but you still don't trust us.

Three days ago , wait I don't know how long I've been here, a couple of days ago ... I waited for you to call back. I had prayed and hoped that you would apologize or at least try to cool off and get back to me... But you didn't. I called ten times before I came back home. I wanted to work things out "

" I was livid... Why would I see pictures of you and that model kissing... "

" I'm innocent and you know that... What the hell were you doing with Jen?"

I asked calmly .

"I was out partying . Her boyfriends' band was playing . I was congratulating her on her pregnancy. She kissed me and told me she wanted me back . I had already downed a bottle of tequila . I thought I screwed up big time cause you didn't deserve the way I talked to you. Angela's baby daddy was there and he recognized me . He didn't let me drive. I'm so sorry ..."

My head started to throb again and before I knew it I was in tears . Brent knew Jenifer was a hard limit . She almost succeeded in breaking us up .

"I had to hear our son crying. Telling me you told him he was a mistake . Angela added insult to injury by telling him you're no longer going to be his dad. Brent we have a son ! You are Andrews' father . He already forgave you yes , but I'm not sure I can handle another set back... You know what Andrea said , when we had our first fight ... "

Brent looked up with a face full of tears. At this point he was shaking and sobbing still sitting on the chair. It broke my heart to see him in that state.

" I will tell you what she told me Clara. She told me to never let you go . She told me to fight for you, that you are worth the fight and she was right. I was wrong. Wrong about , Nathan and Hank that model. I forgive you for the kiss with Juan... Yes I've been going through stuff . I can't imagine ever loving anyone else. We've been through hell and back . I almost lost you and Andy. I don't think I will be able to live with myself if anything happens to you . "

After all these years Brent was starting to open up . There had always been a dark side to him that I knew about . Yanking it out of him and getting him to make peace with it was the hardest thing I ever had to do. He would either wake up in a cold sweat shivering cold from a nightmare , come home crying after work ,feel guilty out of the blue for not being home early enough to spend time with Andy, and the fear that I have always nurtured . His fear of losing everyone he has ever loved . It took three years for us to get to know each other and establish a solid foundation for our relationship , add another year of pre marital counseling and Theology of the Body to prepare for marriag and other things.

Both of us are water signs so talking things out after cooling off has always worked for us. Although he has a razor sharp lounge when he has a good reason to be angry or hurt...

"Stuff I as your wife should know . If you struggling to tell me what's really bothering you... Then yes I will give you time . I've always done that. I wouldn't mind if you even went to therapy or some sort of counseling just to deal with what's bothering you. When you're good and ready I will be here . I'm not going anywhere."

"I know you're not and I have had enough time. Time with you is all I need and I feel that we haven't at least had time to do us. Give me that, time with you is all I'm asking for..."

He dried his eyes and caught a tear that had just escaped from my eye . Kissed my forehead that was covered in a bandage. There was no sensation there . Which left me a tad bit frustrated. I groaned in irritation.

" Dangit when are they going to remove this thing on my head ... "

Brent responded by kissing me on the cheek and stealing kiss unexpectedly .He then sat back down held my had to reassure me he's not going anywhere .

"I know that groan ... Its not a pleasure groan . What's wrong babe?"

"No sensation ... I can feel every part of my body except for the pink cast and my head . "

"We'll find a way around that... I promise. Now what is it that Andrea said ..."

I smiled at Brent.

"Three things."

"Tell me more?"

"You are an emotional softy ,broody, and cautious. She said said I should be patient with you ..."

"Thank you ."

"For what ?"

"For being patient with me. "

" Ha ha I get you."

"You do... Ha ha and you wonder why I married you."

" Mr I'm all mysterious and secretive... I get you. I get that you're jealous... Cause you love and you love with your whole heart ,possessive cause you don't want to share what's yours with others... you want to protect it, broody in a good way, intense in more ways than one, loyal, guarded at times, and very passionate..."

" I married the right woman..."

" Yeah and I married the right man."

"Honey now that your moody rant is done I need to ask you something."

"Anything ..."

" Why do you have a Chelsea scarf in your stuff, When we support Arsenal?"

"Okay I'm going to ask you too get in touch with the scorpio part of you that isn't impulsive."

When Brent chuckled. I knew he was chilled . He had an impassive look about him which meant he was brooding over how in a million years was I wearing a Chelsea scarf when I was an Arsenal supporter .

"You're the one whose impulsive sugar . You are a cardinal moon child ... A moody one at that ... "

I laughed at him sarcastically

" Ha ha Ouch that really hit home..."

"Sugar answer..."

"Juan Diego gave it to me ."

When Brent looked at me he remembered Juan again and he laughed it off.

"Oh tall dark and handsome dark brown rock star hair style and dreamy teddy light brown eyes. He has got nothing on me ."

"Says who ?"

"Says me . Who fell in love with someone special , who looks like dark chocolate dipped caramel and surprisingly looks amazing without a weave . I've missed you with your normal hair. I'm sorry they had to shave it off, "

" You're coming out guns blazing now. Wow. No biggie . It will grow back. Juan gave the scarf to me cause I was coughing like crazy. He said his girlfriend was giving birth to another mans' baby. "

I was laughing really hard cause he was starting to get all green with envy. Then he gave me a serious look.

"Juan is Jenifer's boyfriend , he punched me the other night . He doesn't like me that much."

"Its okay he will make peace with you. I have his scarf you can give it to him."

"And explain to Andy why I have a busted lip again . I don't think so."

"Speaking of our little monster . Where is he ."

Right on cue Andrew came running in.

"Mommy you're awake. I missed you. "

After the little "mood swing rant" I had with Brent .

Nothing could comp are to the infestation of joy that filled my soul when I heard Andy's voice . Brent lifted him up to give me a hug.

I looked at Andrew , who had on a Chelsea hoody with black track suit . When he sat on my bed he was beaming

"Honey... Angel. Where did you get that Chelsea hoody in your size ?"

Andrew's dark brown eyes lit up .

" Uncle J.D. Aunt Katie's friend he even taught me how to sing a song ."

He looked down at his father and Brent was clearly annoyed .

"Daddy don't get mad at me . I like blue now I want a Chelsea bedroom set ."

Brent stood up and kissed me he picked up Andy and made his way out.

" Okay my boy go show me this J.D."

"Okay daddy I will show you . You'll like him and Chelsea too."

Katherine came in laughing at the way Brent was acting.

"Hey girl. Did you two talk things out?"

I nodded

"Thanks lala we did .He knows I'm with child."

"I'm almost too afraid to ask."

"That was six years ago."

"Angela wants to talk to you.."

"No she almost killed me and my baby she can stay away..."

"She lost the baby."

"No way ..."

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