CHAPTER 11

I drunk myself to sleep that day and woke up later in the evening. I would tell my parents about Melisa's pregnancy when we were sure it was mine. I looked around my room and saw all the bags I had packed for college disappointedly. I was disappointed in myself for being reckless and not being able to go to college. I would let them stay packed till we went to the doctors which would be soon. I went around the house lazily wondering what I was going to do with my life. I reached the kitchen and opened the fridge. I knew that my nanny had been here sometime in the day when I was asleep.

Whenever she was here, she always cooked some food and left it for me in the fridge. She knew that I wouldn't cook to save a life. She had been cooking for me my whole life and never allowed me in the kitchen when she was cooking. I found some chicken and some lasagna which I reheated and had for super. After I was done eating, I went to the game room which was in the basement at my house and played some games with some of my friends online. It was later in the night that I called Melisa to know when the visit to the doctor's would be. She told me that her doctor was available the next day.

I watched some sports on the TV in my room for some time then went to sleep. I was woken up by my alarm clock the following morning. I had set it so that I would wake up early in the morning to go pick Melisa up for the doctor's appointment. I could not help but be restless wondering what the results were going to be. I showered and put on some casual outfit and headed down stairs for some breakfast.

Due to worrying so much I only had some cereal and an apple since I could not stomach much due to worry. I then headed to the garage and picked out one of my many cars. I did not want to drive my favorite today since I never anyone inside it. I drove to Melisa's house which did not take long. I passed by Kira's house since they lived in the same neighborhood. I knew that Kira had left town a few days after graduation to start college early. I couldn't help but admire her for her determination and focus. She always knew what she wanted and went for it not letting anything stop her. We had studied together since kindergarten and she was on scholarship all through.

I knew that they were friends with Melisa at a younger age but that changed when Melisa started hanging out with me and my friends. I did not know the real reason they stopped being friends but I knew Melisa didn't like Kira. I saw Melisa's house in view and parked outside. I contemplated on whether to go inside or call her to meet me outside. Her parents did not like me or my friends hanging out with her daughter and I knew the pregnancy would be another reason why they should hate me. They thought that I was the one misleading Melisa and making her a bad girl when in reality she was the devil in disguise. She would pretend to be the nicest person in the world when at home but outside, she cause nightmares for people.

I have to admit that I was no better than her since I always joined her in bullying kids at school or stopped her for that matter. What I didn't do was pretend to be a saint in front of anyone like she did. At some point I think her parents thought that she and Kira were still friends. They would always tell her how Kira was the kind of friend that she should associate with and she would pretend to agree with them.

If only they knew what she did to Kira every day at school just to be called the cool girl and join the popular group. I decided I did not want any more drama and picked my phone and told her that I had arrived. I stayed in the car listening to Bruno Mars 'grenade'. I never liked music but this one was one I listened to regularly. I didn't know the words so I just hummed to the beats.

Easy come, easy go, that's just how you live, oh

Take, take, take it all, but you never give

Should have known you was trouble from the first kiss

Had your eyes wide open

Why were they open? (Ooh)

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash

You tossed it in the trash, you did

To give me all your love is all I ever ask

'Cause what you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

Oh, oh, I would go through all this pain

Take a bullet straight through my brain

Yes, I would die for ya, baby

But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no

Black, black, black and blue

Beat me 'til I'm numb

Tell the devil I said "Hey" when you get back to where you're from

Mad woman, bad woman

That's just what you are

Yeah, you'll smile in my face then rip the brakes out my car

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash

You tossed it in the trash, yes you did

To give me all your love is all I ever ask

'Cause what you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

Oh oh, I would go through all this pain

Take a bullet straight through my brain

Yes, I would die for ya, baby

But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire

Ooh, you'd watch me burn down in flames

You said you loved me, you're a liar

'Cause you never, ever, ever did, baby

But darling, I'd still catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

Oh oh, I would go through all this pain

Take a bullet straight through my brain

Yes, I would die for ya, baby

But you won't do the same

No, you won't do the same

You wouldn't do the same

Ooh, you'd never do the same

No, no, no, no oh

It took I while before Melisa came out of her front door. I knew girls took long to get ready but Melisa was a bit extra. She liked make-up and dressing up and therefore she long to get ready. I always thought her make-up was exaggerated but I would never tell her that. That was the work of her female friend who I knew would never tell her that in fear of being thrown out of her group. It disgusted me how girls followed her around like lost puppies just because she was my girlfriend and because she sat at the popular table.

Melisa put her safety belt on after saying hi and I drove off to the hospital after getting directions from her. I didn't know whether it was just my imagination but Melisa seemed a bit off. I brushed it off and continued driving in silence. The only sound in the car was the soft music playing in the radio. Melisa was looking out through the window in deep thoughts. It took about half an hour to get to the hospital where she had booked an appointment. I looked for some space in the parking lot and we headed inside.

The hospital was filled with pregnant women and children running around and some crying loudly. My heart started hammering thinking of the possibility of being in a similar situation. I mean would I be a good father and a good role model. I did not even know one thing about a baby. I had also been brought up alone with no siblings therefore I did not even know how I would take care of a baby. I knew that if the test results were positive, I would help Melisa raise the baby but our relationship was over. There was no us from the moment I broke it off a few weeks ago.

We would try co-parenting, sharing the baby on certain days. I also knew that I had one more problem which was telling my parents that I was having a baby. I knew they would suggest paying for her abortion but that was never an option for me. I also knew that they would try to buy her out of my life in order to save the family's reputation. All these thoughts made me have a slight headache and I brushed my fingers through my hair. I always did this when I was stressed about something. My thoughts were interrupted when Melisa's name was called. I did not know whether to follow her inside the doctor's office so I just continued sitting there looking around. She must have realized that I wasn't behind her because she called my name and asked me to follow them.