CALAMITY

Calamity

I sit and watch you talking with your head low .

I cried and watched you changing like the weather oh !

I sit and watched you , I noticed your cunning lies dissapeared , you're so much older and wiser but I am waiting in the librairy like I am just a kid .

I lost my best colors for your portraits , creating stroies to pay your attention , finishing your homework to be your friend .

When you were building another world where was I ?

I made you my temple , my fellow , my scarf .

When you were making friends where was I ?

Did you forget about my stories and your lies , I gave you my secrets , my stories , my scars and now I am begging for a remedy and the cure from your heart .

Under this tree , we were watching reruns of glee .

I was an outlandish like a cacophony destroying a pure melody .

Calling my other friends , telling them I love them and I missed them .

Calling my friends , telling them sorry 'cause I replaced them.

What the hell did I do ?

I felt for a moment like I am a screaming color but now why am I so blue ?

Day and night , creating you in my mind .

Maybe I should just learn , how to say goodbye , you didn't mean when you said you love me .

The smile that you gave me , It fell apart , It was wasted like your dad's money.

Ignoring me and feeling me , It's a calamity .

Overburdening you like a heavy scar , so If you hate me you should cut me off or let me down but don't say you love me .

Wounds and knives , and nightlight , dreaming of you you're my peter pan , scared from you like a little a child .

Asking myself what I will do If you'll leave me here without saying the truth , cursing me like I am emotionless, It's a calamity.

I hate you like my old scarf , like rap music , like the traffic lights .

I want you so bad , but i hate you so much , wearing your clothes to feel your touch .

I am crying for you , won't you let me go ?

Your cameras have flashes it causes crashes and it made a calamity at your heart .

So when you're not here , the room gets darker and darker and I don't why this is happening and you know that I hate you , I need tissues for my issues and band-aids for my heart .