Chapter 84: Memories part 2

warning: it's depressing ah, just a Little warning oh.

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Su AnJun slowly said "When the apocalypse suddenly started we were together, he and I were fine until we joined a group."

"Back then, I was too naive and gullible, I join the group even when A'Hou said not too. He was a bit suspicious of them but I trusted them because how kind the old man given us food even though they don't have enough. A'Hou let it go as I wanted to join them and he joined too. but afterwards was hell...the old man had tricked us...

"That old man used me as bait to run away but A'Hou ran back to save me. He was the best a track-field after all, he can run very fast... " Su AnJun slowly stopped talk, he didn't want to say the truth.

Hui MengYu asked lightly "..Then what?"

"Saving me...but got himself scratched and bitten..many times... I couldn't do anything! I tried to save him, even tried to cut off his leg at the last moment.... but.. he still turned...urg....if..if...I had just cutted his leg off! He Could..No Would Have Survived!" Su AnJun shouted in despair.

Hui MengYu "...."

Su AnJun grabbed his hair trembling as he spook. "....If I found out my ability before any of it happened then A'Hou would still be here with me...Why did I have to join that group!? If I haven't wanted to join that old Geezer's Fucking Group! Maybe We would have been Fine!" Su AnJun eyes was burning with hatred and regret. he clenched his hand tightly at the gun handle, molding the handle to finger shape.

Hui MengYu looked at his eyes, his eyes was filled with tears, with an expression on that looked like he didn't want to live anymore. ".....Did you got your revenge?"

"ha..haha...Did you know?...When I got my friend buried..and went to find him...he was being eaten by a Lv2 zombie, it was his son who ate him. His son had already turned into a zombie. While his son's girlfriend was running away."

"..."

Su AnJun with tears falling from his face, laughed. "Hahahahaha! I didn't even got my revenge, they already got themselves Killed! hahaha-ugh...I had wanted to kill that old geezer myself...a...pity it is..."

"Now...I just want my peace... A'Hou at the last moment told me to survive... he told me that he loved me for ten years already and scolded me that I was too stupid to find out. B-But....But A'Hou I.... want to be with you more instead of being alive....." Su AnJun whispered the last sentence to himself.

Nevertheless Hui MengYu still heard him. Hui MengYu didn't replied to him, everyone has a different way of thinking, and doing things. Even though he been though that too, but it is different for everyone. Hui MengYu himself had wanted to end things many times too, but he has a coward, he ran away from his problems. Regretting many choices he made, hating himself because of the stupid choices he made. And.... Even if he faces it....What can he do? What happened has already happened, the past has been stamped in the history.

Like a broken vase that couldn't be put back together. He and Myself is...a bit Similar in a way. but others can have a story like them too. It could be even more tragic and sad.

Wanting to say something to him, but what could he say? He himself tried to survive til the end everyday. How can he give comfort to someone else when he...also.. wanted to die, ending everything...How nice it would've been...

....if he ended everything right now.