Chapter:3 Aurora

Aurora P.O.V (5 years old)

"oh God Aurora stop being a crying baby"

I tried but the hiccups started and I couldn't stop it

"stop being a cry baby!" my sister yells at me

"that's why we don't like playing with u!"

my brother yells at me

my sobbing increased

"what are u two doing?!"

mom rushed to me and pick me up from ground

"Charlie she's ur little sister stop picking at her! she's cry!"

I got into my mom embrace and the hiccups and sobbing slowly starts to fades away.

" You two should be ashamed."

I close my eyes and welcome the warm hug of my mom, the warm hug pushed away the cold feelings

"mom she's acting! we didn't do anything! cry baby.''

my sister said so harshly I started crying again.

am I really that bad of a sister?

I cried into my mom arms

"shut up Samantha. I saw what u said to ur sister and that's not okay. apologize to ur sister."

" what no way!"

" that's not a question" mom deadpan her and my sister turn to me with bitter look and said

" I'm sorry"

"Charlie?"

he said with a annoyed look

"I'm sorry can we go now?"

my mom look at my face and said

"its okay hun. I'm here. do u forgive ur brother and sister?"

I nodded

" good baby girl do u wanna play with them too?"

"yea-"

I was cut off by my siblings

" no way we don't wanna play with a cry baby she's useless "

"she's ur sister don't talk like that "

mom scolded them

"baby girl do u wanna play?"

I shook my head in no

they are better off without me maybe if I just starts to side with them they might like me

"okay baby girl "

my mom said and kiss my forehead beforej putting me down. maybe this way they'll like me more.

5 years later

P.O.V Aurora (10 years)

"here take this just one more paratha"

my mom said to my brother.

I smiled and look down at my plate. my empty plate

"Samantha take some more curry"

I look at the reflection of me. I used to think I was good looking but my sister told me the brutal truth, of how I'm the ugliest among them all.

"what's wrong Aurora?"

my dad broke me out of my strance

I just shrugged

"nothing"

"then why aren't u eating?"

I look at my empty plate again and then back at my dad

"yeah you're not a kid anymore Aurora u can serve urself."

my mom said and I was a bit hurt at how she was serving ny other siblings but I didn't say anything and just took the curry and paratha. I can't help but feel like I'm not so important to mom like my brother and sister, I may be wrong but no matter what I do I can't shake the feeling of being the least important child or the useless child.

maybe I just thinking too much.

mom loves me and I love her that's all that matter

P.O.V Aurora (15 Years old)

"dear diary

today one of my worst fears come true. The day was going usual until a guest arrive and mom got busy with them I was in no mood for interaction and so I went to my room and stay in. I was enjoying my own quite heaven and the day was going fine but then I got hungry like extremely I look at the time it was 5 pm. i went downstairs looking for mom and food but no one was home. i panick and called mom only to realise all of them went out for lunch. leaving me all alone.

I hang up before she could say more and let the reality sink in.

Today I realise how little value I hold to my family, a part of me always knew but now I just don't know why it hurts so much I always imagine these things would happen but now that it did it made me feel so much pain that I wish I was dead. I should've died when I got into that accident why Allah why did u save me? I am just so worthless. i-"

a tear falls down into my diary.

I close the diary and let myself cry out loud.

I knew I was the black sheep of the family. the abnormal kid. the burden of the family. the useless extra luggage.

I can't help my tears from falling. it hurts so much hearing such words from my family.

I am just so weak and pathetic I am crying?

here I am bawling my eyes out while everyone else having so much fun. I'm just so weak.

present day Aurora P.O.V

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Pain is all I felt. no matter how many times I tried to get use to it, I just can't, everytime I hear the same words coming out of my moms mouth or someone I love, it only brings me down. yes I may not be the perfect daughter but who is? I'm not enough yeah it's true I've been told over and over again and its just hurts. I don't wanna live where no matter what I do or say, I will always be a liability, a worthless penny. Where my sacrifices are nothing. If life isn't gonna get better then can atleast life stay the same? everything is just becoming worse, be it me or my environment I just feel so lost. all this feels so exhausting why why do I have to suffer so much misery? if Allah is real then why make me suffer so much? where's mercy? I wanna see the other side now nothing could be worse than all this. damn it I won't cry around here I won't waste a single tear on people who doesn't give a damn about me!

"hey"

what am I doing? just crying like a fool for true words. I'm pathetic

"hey hey"

why don't i just end my life? maybe that was the purpose of my life all along? we will die anyway. what's the point of this never ending pain?

"HEY ARE U DEAF?"

A loud yell pulled me out of my train of thought but thankfully my tear weren't visible to my intruder due to the close curtain and the dim lighting

"what?" I tried to yell but my voice was hoarse

"I've been calling u for decade!" I didn't turn around so my face wouldn't be visible and I know from the annoying voice it's my sister

"what?" I ignore her remark and asked again

"come down for breakfast"

she said in a annoyed voice clearly showing her irritated self but I couldn't care less tho I don't wanna argue now and so I said i just nodded.

"do a favour and stop being such a burden on our family" i just laughed bitterly and she turn around, slap the door and left.

maybe that's what I should do. I should leave forever