Secretary Andrew Feels A Heart Rushing Emotion. Indigestion?

"And that's basically what happened the whole time we were away. We're just letting the whole loan shark thing blow over and wrap this project before we figure out what to do next."

Andrew's voice became hoarse from discussing the whole story to the team. Allen was no help at all, the lazy ass. Though at one point he stopped Andrew from showing the photos. His face red all over.

"I trust everyone will keep this to themselves," Allen spoke after a while.

"Let's keep this between us," said Andrew in agreement. "It's a precarious time for Lopez Co."

The team nodded in understanding, except for the new-comer Luiz. He glanced at the team, and leaned forward as if the walls had ears.

"Are you referring to the Ceron loyalists or the senior management?" He asked.

"Both," said Mike. "Those nasty loyalists are biting the hands that fed them. They keep trying to dig up dirt one or another. You've met them already, Luiz. They're old folks that keep glaring from a distance."

Andrew sighed. "Our projects are considered expenses. Senior management who was happy with the status quo are now unhappy."

Luiz's nodded and narrowed his eyes. "Those pigs."

Everyone burst into laughter from Luiz's comment. This was a side of Luiz that they haven't seen, hence their surprise at the vulgarity. But Andrew's concern grew, because the two gossip mongers were unusually quiet. Allen must've noticed too.

"Sonna and Claire, what are your thoughts on this?" Allen asked.

The two women exchanged glances, then giggled.

"Oh, don't worry, Sir Allen," Claire replied with an unabashed smile. "We're not going to gossip about it. It's just—it's so romantic."

Andrew didn't like where this was going. Or the implications Claire was about to spit out, or the obvious meaning of Sonna's heavy stare. She cut-off Claire before anything could be said.

"Thank you, everyone. Now, why don't we celebrate and enjoy the food that's going cold?"

"That's right." Allen stood up and lead everyone to the dining table. He passed champagne glasses around and poured everyone a drink. "I would like to congratulate our beloved secretary for six amazing years and the success of our project. To us!"

"Cheers!"

They clinked their glasses and took a sip. But when Andrew was about to gulp down the sweet champagne, Allen held his wrist, effectively stopping him. Andrew clicked his tongue but surrendered his glass.

They took a photo to commemorate the night. Andrew, who sat beside Sonna, noticed something eerie in the photo. Allen was flashing a smile.

"He's so handsome," said Sonna.

Andrew noticed Sonna was about to send the photo to someone in the office. Andrew's hand flew and gripped Sonna's hand. Sonna flinched and asked, "What?"

Andrew smiled. "Don't send that photo."

"Why?"

Andrew asked himself the same question, but he refused to answer it. Instead, he smiled at Sonna. "Don't you want to hear the other stories?"

Claire shimmied her chair closer to them. "I want to hear them too."

The three went over the fake dating stories over Allen's delicious dishes. Andrew missed this. Nights of just telling stories to his friends. His mouth has been itching to talk about this whole thing. They also went over past events in the office, they shared laughter, and everyone had a good time.

It took about half an hour to install the karaoke machine Mike had brought and half an hour arguing with Allen. But they were finally singing to their hearts content. All of them were intoxicated, even Allen. But Andrew was sober as a rock. Still, he was just having as much fun as he would when he's drunk. Much to his surprise.

Sonna plopped down beside Andrew with a giggle and drink in her hand.

"I can't believe you two still aren't together," she said.

Luiz, who was on the floor, drunk as a skunk, echoed her sentiments. While the rest forced Allen to sing a love song.

"Don't think I don't notice the longing stares," said Luiz. "You two, all you do is stare, stare, stare, and then laugh, and then stare some more."

Sonna slapped Luiz on the face, the youngest son of the owner of the company she works for. "That's right," she yelled. "What he said."

"What did I say," Luiz mumbled, as he got up and plopped down beside Andrew.

Mike walked up to them and extended a hand to Sonna.

"Want to dance?" he asked.

Sonna shyly accepted. They danced in the middle of the living room, accompanied by the slow strings of the romantic music, and Allen's begrudged ugly voice. Though with a face like that, Allen didn't really need a golden voice. Life was fair.

"Hey, you," Luiz whispered in Andrew's ear with his hot breath. "You should dance with big brother."

I think my brother likes you.

Luiz's words came back to Andrew with a flood of memories. Memories Andrew and Allen had shared privately but was now shared with the whole room. He didn't know why he had to prove Allen didn't have feelings for him, but he just had to. Andrew could always read what Allen was thinking in the office. He's confident he can do it now.

Allen turned around, still singing, and caught Andrew's eye. Andrew stood up. Took one step closer to Allen. Another step. He took one more until he was close enough to ask, "Want to dance?'"

"Yes," came Allen's breathless reply.

Andrew held Allen's waist as Allen held his, but he kept the mic close to his lips as if he was serenading Andrew. Andrew peered into Allen's eyes. This close, he could the specks of brown that shined under the strobing lights. The faint hint of red that painted Allen's cheeks. The little satisfied yet shy curl of Allen's lips. Moments passed, and his smile turned into a smirk. Handsome bastard.

"Is it true that I am your type of man?" Allen asked.

"Do you really have feelings for me?" Andrew replied.

The song ended and Andrew didn't receive an answer.

Allen invited them to spend the night and the team fully took advantage of it by getting drunk. Not Andrew though, tonight he wanted to sleep sober. He had wanted to replay the moments he spent with Allen. If along the way, there was a chance for something more than their boss-and-employee relationship. This ran through his mind as he stared the wall of the guest bedroom, lying on the carpeted floor. Heaviness weighed down his eyes and he fell asleep.

He realized, after being jolted awake, that he should not have slept sober. His lungs burned from exhaustion, eyes painfully wide in panic, and the nightmare of being woken up of by the grip of his father kept flashing as he behind his eyes.

Suddenly, he was enveloped in Allen's arms. But Allen's voice barely registered as a sharp ringing pierced inside Andrew's head.

"Try to match my breathing." Allen instructed, and Andrew tried. "Inhale...Exhale...Inhale..."

Andrew followed Allen's words, while his warm hand caressed his back to ease Andrew's breathing. After a few beats Andrew's breathing stabilized, but he was too embarrassed for being dramatic. Allen must've sensed this. With a gentle push Allen laid them both in the bed. Allen's bed.

They couldn't sleep, too caught in each other's eyes. Well, Andrew's were filled with annoyance. He absolutely despised showing his vulnerability to Allen.

"Before you diffuse the situation with a joke," Allen mumbled. "I need to say that this has happened on numerous occasions, so please do not lie to me that this is a one- time occurrence. I beg you not to. You do not have to confide in me if you are not comfortable. But let me comfort you, please give me that."

Andrew remained quiet and still. Under the shadows of night, the warm embrace of Allen, and his soft gaze set upon Andrew. He surrendered willingly just for tonight.

"I want to share something with you," Allen said, softly. "A rude executive inquired as to why I hired a male secretary from a mid-tier school with an unrelated bachelor's degree."

"Who the fuck—"

"Let me finish my story. This occurred during the integration of Lopez Co. and the Ceron's major subsidiaries. Your accomplishments were not yet as widespread in the industry unlike today. And as they were new and livid, they enjoyed nitpicking the company that had absorbed them. But beside the point, I only replied, because he is the perfect secretary to me."

"Perfect?" said Andrew. He buried his face further into Allen's arms. "You know I hated that word. It made me anxious, scared. I'm always scared. I can't seem to move forward on my own no matter what I do. I don't know what to do anymore. Am I still perfect?"

"Yes, perfect," replied Allen with a hint of a smile. "Under any boss, I would not assume the level of your performance, but to me...You were perfect. All my weaknesses were your strengths. All that I had lack, you brought in. Leadership, social skills, creativity, all of this I had none. Until you came in. I know that you're afraid. Who isn't? I hope that the little Andrew knows that I wouldn't be where I am today, without you. You are perfect for me."

Andrew remained quiet. Here in a sea of violets sheets, anchored in Allen's arm. And the moment he opened his mouth. He knew he would regret it, but he can do that in the morning.

"My dad was violent with me," whispered Andrew. "It started when Uncle Karlito took me out and we ate a meal that came with a pink toy that I took home. Dad was furious. Only later in life when I grew up in the orphanage that I realized he was wrong. I knew I was a victim. And I know that he's gone now. But I still can't stop dreaming about it from time to time. I really thought your father would be the same when you came out to your parents."

Allen bent down and placed a gentle kiss on Andrew's head. He caressed Andrew until his closed.