Chapter 41: The Nightmare Returns

Two blue lines. My heart pounds like a jackhammer. How can there be two blue lines? I look to Jeremy. He has that ‘deer in the headlights’ look.

“Shasta, babe, this is shitty timing. You know it is. You can’t seriously consider keeping it.”

“We’re talking about a baby. Not an ‘it.’”

He rolls his eyes. “I know, I get it. But how can you do this? You’re starting an action movie in just a few weeks.” He holds her tightly. “I know you want this, hell, I want it, too. Just…not now. You can see I’m right about this.”

Wordlessly, we drive to the appointment he made. I feel like I’m in a bubble. Voices are muted. They’re talking to me, but I can’t hear them, don’t want to hear them.

“Just relax, it will all be over soon.”

And the baby cries. Where is he? I can’t find him. He needs me and I can’t find him…